The average Jehovah's Witness is nothing like the evil doers seen here who, sad but true, are mostly elders and ministerial servants, sheltered and protected by the Watchtower Society for the sake of its own image.  Every JW parent is urged to keep a super close eye out for the safety of their babies and young children, both the boys and the girls.  The Kingdom Hall does not provide a "spiritual paradise" but has become and increasingly gets worse as a "pedophiles' paradise."  Watchtower's manual that came out in 2010 which is for elders' eyes only, hence secret, says in chapter 3, section 19 that Bodies Of Elders can keep as fellow elders those who confess to major sins (read "crimes"), and those include pedophilia, murder, wiretapping etc. 

Expert Bill Bowen, who founded
www.silentlambs.org, has estimated that now every single Kingdom Hall has at least one pedophile sheltered and hidden in it which puts at the risk all the other Jehovah's Witnesses attending in a hall, especially the most vulnerable, the little ones.  And besides pedophiles, as noted, there are murderers, rapists, thieves etc who aren't repentant but have just pretended to be.  Elders doing "everything possible" in order to hide pedophiles and those of like ilk in order to please "Watchtower" can only remind us of ancient Canaanites who stooped sacrificing children.  Absolutely shameful. 

Hosea 6:7-9 says "But they themselves like earthling man have overstepped the covenant.  There is where they have dealt treacherously with me.  Gilead is a town of practicers of what is harmful; their footprints are in blood.  And as in the lying in wait for a man, the association of priests (or: "association of elders") are marauding bands." 



The following matter was brought up by an older friend who resides with her husband near Chicago, Illinois.  She has asked that although this item is "old" news, it be made public at this time and for the future, especially too in view of the fact that there will no doubt be future efforts by the convicted murderer to go free including the possibility of a parole hearing in 2035.  Her information is amply confirmed by various Illinois news sources:

When 16 to 17 years old in 1990 William Carlson of Meadowbrook Drive in the tiny Wildwood suburb east of Grayslake, Illinois, waited for his father Paul (35) to return home then shot him in the back of the neck and then, after he fell, also in the top of the forehead.  Later when his mother Sandra (41) came home an hour later Carlson shot her in the face, tore off her clothes and raped her.  The firearm was a .357 magnum handgun rented for $100 from three other juvenille students at Warren High School in Gurney, Illinois.  He had stolen then sold some of his father's gold coins collection to get the gun, later recovered from a North Chicago apartment.

At the original sentencing a psychiatrist testified that he believed Carlson was physically and sexually abused by his JW parents.  The family religion became an issue when William complained to classmates that he was not allowed to associate with anyone other than of Jehovah's Witnesses.  His father Paul was an elder (clergyman) at the Libertyville congregation. 

The congregation's presiding (chief) elder, William Murphy, said William always went preaching door-to-door with his parents, also spending at least 5 or 6 hours a week attending  meetings.  He added that the Libertyville congregation as a family often discussed personal matters as a group and the Carlsons never indicated they had any troubles at home or at work.  Former neighbor Lora Kurrasch, of Zion said "they were a perfect couple, and Willie was a little angel." 

However other neighbors say he was socially awkward, hard to engage in conversation or get to know.  Neighbor Claudia Venegoni said, ``We probably knew him better than anybody in the neighborhood, and we didn`t really know him at all.`` She added he was seldom seen with other teens and didn`t seem to fit in with neighborhood kids. A classmate noted that his parents would allow him to associate only with other Jehovah's Witnesses.  Various friends and family say he preached at doors with his parents from the time he was a little boy; spent much time working in the Carlsons` carefully landscaped yard with his father.

Dr. Norman Chapman, a Lake Bluff psychiatrist, described Carlson as paranoid and often having huge gaps in memory. The murderer refused to discuss relations with his parents and religion “except in the most idealized fashion” and yet when administered truth serum spoke of long-standing physical and sexual abuse by his Jehovah's Witness parents.

After slaying both parents William Carlson took the family 1988 maroon Nissan Maxima, sold some his father's possessions, then fled to Canada where he went on a shopping spree. After getting into a hit-and-run accident, he walked into and confessed to the murders at a Quebec City police station. In 2004 he appealed his conviction but was sent back to prison to finish his sentence. In June 1993 he had also unsuccessfully tried to claim his parents' estate. He was smooth-shaven, wore glasses and had a full head of dark hair in 1990 but a later prison photo shows him with shaved or balded head, mustache and goatee. He is serving 90 years at Stateville Correctional Center in Joliet, Illinois.

Officer Rick Eckensthaler
noted that "This was a premeditated, violent, disturbing type of incident that really shook the Gurnee-Gages Lake-Wildwood community."

Killer disputes 90-year sentence.  Wildwood man shot his parents.”  Chicago Tribune.  December 03, 2004.  By M. Daniel Gibbard, Tribune staff reporter.
"Murderer Sent Back To Prison." News Sun 12/4/-4, and Chicago Tribune.
“Son`s Friends Are Questioned In Slaying Of Parents.” Chicago Tribune. October 30, 1990. By Christine Winter and John Lucadamo.
"Son Sought In 2 Slayings Turns Self In.”  October 31, 1990.  Chicago TribuneBy Robert Enstad. Christine Winter contributed to this report.
“Wildwood Youth, 16, Indicted On Charges Of Slaying Parents.” Chicago Tribune.  November 15, 1990.  By Christine Winter.


Mount Rainier a ways from the murder scene and Kingdom Hall but a main landscape marker

The CBS NEWS documentary series 48 Hours has presented the story of how Barb Thompson and famous murder mystery author Ann Rule investigated the death of Barb’s daughter, Jehovah’s Witness Ronda Elizabeth Thompson that occurred December 1998 in Toledo a town in the state of Washington. When Ronda’s marriage to Mark Liburdi became shakey, they “sought counseling through their Jehovah's Witness church where the elder was none other than Ron Reynolds.”  (On video tape at 8:18/42:04)  Click here for the transcript and learn why Jehovah’s Witness elder Ronald Reynolds whom she married after the divorce with Liburdi, and Reynold's son Jonathan have been considered the major suspects.  It includes photos of their Kingdom Hall.  After a coroner's inquest Ronda’s death certificate has now been changed from suicide to “HOMICIDE,” although the Reynolds are not being prosecuted or convicted and so are considered innocent.  For the full written account see http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-18559_162-57418047/author-ann-rule-helps-mother-search-for-truth/  To see the CBS' video http://www.cbsnews.com/video/watch/?id=7406160n

It's said that the human brain and eyes are connected such that whenever a person says a lie his pupils contract but when he tells the truth his pupils enlarge.  Watch the pupils, hear the words, facial expressions etc on the video tape, and see what you think.



John Nicoll, a man from the United States, has been convicted of sex crimes in Scotland, and his defence attorney notes he had experienced unhealthily severe sexual repression while among Jehovah's Witnesses.  The full newspaper report on the testimony, conviction etc are here: http://news.stv.tv/scotland/193405-american-paedophile-jailed-for-year/



David Clark Nelson was a 33 year old Jehovah's Witness elder when he had sex with a then 14 year old boy in his congregation in Maricopa County, Arizona.  On different occasions he had a boy come to his house and play strip poker, part of which involved having oral sex.  Thirty years later Nelson was  caught and sentenced but only because the victim phoned him and recorded his admitting that he had done the crimes.  However Nelson received only a six months sentence because he was sentenced according to what the law in 1981 said the maximum was at the time of his having committed the crimes.

The Jehovah's Witness who murdered the top
Presidential Candidate in Mexico


On March 23, 1994 in Lomas Taurina, Tijuana, Mexico, Jehovah's Witness Mario Aburto assasinated Luis Donaldo Colosio Murrieta, who was at the time the lead candidate for becoming the President of Mexico.  Aburto was filmed doing the crime, captured on the spot, and  gunpower was found on his hands.  Mexico did not have the death penalty so could only sentence him to the maximum amount of time in prison, fifty years.



Jehovah's Witness Victor Lynch-Staunton who in the past had been in a nudist club in Ottawa, Ontario Province, Canada, was convicted in January 2012 of possessing child pornography.  Police had seized 2,097 child pornography pictures, 1,763 stories and 574 movies.  His eight years of online chats had included propositioning 12-year-old girls, and he showed no remorse at having expressed interest in counseling incest, bestiality and other such acts with children, claiming it was just for educational purposes.  He euphemistically called photos showing children being raped "erotic nudity."  Judge Lynn Ratushny ordered a pre-sentence report and a sexual behaviours assessment ahead of sentencing submissions set for June 15.  He had been a computer software worker.

On the JWD forum "James Wood" posted that he doubted Lynch-Staunton was a real, active Jehovah's Witness, but on the same string "MartynAndrew" noted "This guy worked at the Canadian Bethel for sometime when I was in in the 1990s. He was assigned to The Applewood Congregation in Mississauga. I know because I was a member there at the time. He was a nerdy geek , but did not say or do anythhing I would notice as being dangerous, but i guess that is how these creeps get away with it. Glad he got his ass kick in jail, at least their is a sense of justice, unlike the KH."

Another quick post by "ex360shipper" also sought to cast doubt saying "JW's are allowed to be nudists?  Something seems off to me."  This was a lie for no one said the convicted pedophile was a nudist WHILE a Jehovah's Witness.  The obvious is that he had been a nudist prior to becoming a Jehovah's Witness, and at that a Jehovah's Witness working as a member of the staff at Canada's branch facility.



Jehovah's Witness Otty Sanchez (33) was reported as dismembering her 3 1/2-week-old boy, chewing off 3 of his toes, tearing away his face, severing his head severed and ripping out his brains.  She then stabbed herself and screamed "the devil made me do it."   Even the police used to grisley scenes were disgusted about what happened to her baby boy Scott Wesley Buccholtz-Sanchez.  Sanchez was sent to be treated for mental illness at a hospital while held on a $1 million bail.  Her husband Scott had moved a week before and after the murder said although he had loved her, the crime is heinous and she needed to be executed.  Her sister and her sister's two children, ages 5 and 7, were in the house, but not harmed.  A sobbing aunt noted that Otty Sanchez had been in and out of psychiatric treatment.  http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/07/27/otty-sanchez-woman-accuse_n_245627.html  http://articles.nydailynews.com/2009-07-28/news/17928474_1_gloria-sanchez-otty-sanchez-postpartum-depression


Pedophile Jehovah's Witness Elder Paul Woods

Paul Wood, a 40-year-old Jehovah's Witness formerly of Sudbury, was sentenced in January 2012 by Judge David Goodin.  At time of sentencing he was residing in Derby in the United Kingdom.  Wood was an elder as a following link to a list of trustees in kingdom hall congregations in the U.K. shows.  He went from hall to hall.  Comment: Hearsay only is that some parents were also in addition to the tried case going ahead and suing Watchtower in the U.K. and Brooklyn for $17 million and certain to get it since the kids mentioned in the article and many others not mentioned were not properly protected from Wood.  His having been convicted would clear the way and Watchtower would pay to get it settled.  I don't know the U.K.'s laws but assumedly the settlement there as in the U.S. might be kept quiet. (?)


Three women alleged Paul Wood, while a Jehovah’s Witness in Suffolk, United Kingdom, sexually assaulted them when they were younger in Jehovah's Witness families; also that he tried to rape one of them while his wife was in a hospital giving birth to his and her second child.  They went public only after discovering that after he moved to another location he was again becoming taking on a role bringing him into contact with young females.  Wood, age 40 and living in Derbyshire; said they all three were just lying.


Cambridge Crown Court (U.K.) heard Kirk Lefcovitch (25) had repeatedly asked an 11-year-old boy to show his private parts, handed him him pornography and sex toys.  Lefcovitch who is a Jehovah's Witness was persuaded by non-Jehovah's Witnesses, counselors, to turn himself in for treatment.  The Judge didn't put him in jail even though he was also convicted in 2000 for a string of sexual assaults on an 8-year-old boy!



In the U.K. an 86 year-old-Jehovah's Witness, John Drury, is claiming that his rights are violated because he has to inform a church or kingdom hall group one week in advance before he attends a meeting.  Clicking the link farther below will give you more details. 

Also, some past notes on the JWD forum have brought out that at trial it was said that Drury was a “trusted” and “respected” Jehovah’s Witness, which may mean that he was an Elder.  He was charged and convicted in 2005 of having sexually molested eight young girls whom he invited to his luxury home with a large garden, pond and miniature train set, then gave them permission to run yelling through it all they wanted before he tucked them into bed and committed his crimes on them.




In Poteau, Oklahoma, a woman and her husband had arranged for a Jehovah's Witness man and woman to study the Bible with their daughter (13) and son (15) but the couple had to be gone a while, so the elders were contacted and they sent Rick Brown to study with them without informing them that Brown was a convicted child molester.  The woman wrote to Bill Bowen of www.silentlambs.org that

"he keep wanting us to bring the kids over to his trailer, for the day or even overnight, so that my husband and I could have a break away from the kids. We declined his offers, but in his following visits he started to make comments toward my daughter that seemed off to me. Then the comments started to get creepy! After he left I got online to the sex offender list and, well there he was! I contacted the kingdom hall and told them the whole story, they told me it would be dealt with. Now I see he is out going door to door.”



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Photos from left to right: Mugshot of Phillip Garrido; Mugshot of Nancy Garrido; Sketch that eyewitnesses helped develop of the woman who helped a man with the 1991 kidnapping of then 11-year-old Jaycee Lee Dugan

POSTINGS BY "WILLYLOMAN" AND OTHERS ON JWD FORUM SINCE THE DIANE SAWYER (ABCNEWS.COM) INTERVIEW OF VICTIM JAYCEE DUGARD: "I was struck by the fact that Diane S mentioned JWs, even though she didn't follow up on that (or at least they didn't air any follow up). I don't know who wrote the script and have no idea how much input DS had on that, but the fact that they included this connection in a report that was carefully edited regarding details about the crime suggests someone thought it was pertinent. Perhaps this link will be explored in future news reports."  Click the following link for more:

HOW GARRIDO GOT TO EXIT PRISON SO FAST: A court-appointed psychiatrist, Dr. Lynn Gerow, described Garrido as having a "multiple sexual deviation" condition - including compulsive masturbation - and attributed it to four years of daily LSD use, along with marijuana, alcohol and cocaine ingestion.  When Garrido subsequently appealed his sentence, however, his lawyer said he was getting help in prison and had become a Jehovah's Witness. In a handwritten letter to a judge in March 1978, Garrido said he was ready for a chance to "get my life in line."  "I am so ashamed of my past. But my future is now in controle (sic)," he wrote.   Authorities with the U.S. Parole Commission have declined to comment about the circumstances of Garrido's release. However, Gail Powell, a spokeswoman for the Nevada Department of Public Safety, said federal authorities at the time told the state that "his progress reports were good. I don't know the specifics, other than he was coming along nicely."

Police have been using cadaver dogs to search the adjoining property which alleged pedophile Phillip Craig Garrido cared for until it was bought by Damon Robinson.  The now 58 year old had kidnapped then eleven-year-old Jaycee Lee Dugard on 10 June 1991 at South Lake Tahoe.  He held her in his backyard at 1554 Walnut Avenue in Antioch, California (zip: 94509) for eighteen years, impregnating her at age 14 with a daughter and siring a second daughter by her a few years later. 

Police in Pittsburg, a Bay Area city near where the Garridos lived are investigating if Garrido may be linked to nine unsolved murders of nine prostitutes and a school girl in the early 1990s.  Antioch, California, police are also re-examining unsolved cases.  Sheriff's deputies and prosecutors from two counties and officers from two city police departments have been using dogs, shovels, chain saws and metal detectors to investigate the neighboring property.  They have been up and down Walnut Avenue.  Several of the murdered women's bodies were dumped near an industrial park where Garrido worked during the 1990s.  The school girl victim was Lisa Norrell, a 15-year-old, who vanished November 6, 1998, after leaving a dance party alone in Antioch.

His first wife, Christine Murphy, now remarried, said they had been high school sweethearts, but she divorced him and says he was a manipulative “monster.”  While married to her he became angry that another man had flirted with her that he went after her eyes with a safety pin, putting a scar on her face.  She says he also “smacked” her around, once tracked her down after she had fled him.  She was not surprised to learn of what all her ex-husband is charged with, was shocked to learn he had gotten out of prison after only eleven years.

 In 1976 he was convicted of kidnapping a woman casino croupier worker Katherine Callaway Hall in Reno, Nevada, on November 26, 1976, then sexually assaulting her somewhere around Tahoe, Nevada.  While imprisoned at Leavenworth, Kansas, Garrido met his current wife, named Nancy M. Bocanegra when born in the Phillipines.  She was visiting a relative in prison.  She has been reported to have been a Jehovah’s Witness, and normally Jehovah’s Witnesses are only permitted to marry other members.  Phillip Garrido is said to have sometimes attended a Kingdom Hall with her.  However, it is also said that both of the Garridos now shares the same beliefs that he has, a religion he has called “God’s Desire.”

The two wrote one another while he was in the federal prison at Leavenworth.   In early 1986 he was transferred to the maximum security facility in Lompoc, California.
  Their wedding was at the prison October 5, 1981 when he was 30 and she was 26.  He won parole after only eleven years of fifty years at least in part because he said convincingly that he had found God.  Whether he was a Jehovah’s Witness at least for a while or not, as said JW’s do not normally get to marry non-JWs.  Any records such as about baptism, any Judicial Committee discipline records such as there might be pertaining to child molestation perpetrated against JW children, etc, would be kept in files that JW elders have been told by the Watchtower Society heads over JWs to guard even from police and if necessary, destroy.

In 2007 the Watchtower Society chose to settle out of court by paying out undisclosed millions of dollars when sixteen child molestation victims sued in a case filed in Napa Valley, California.  They did so after judicial rulings had established that the Watchtower Society was wrong in claiming it enjoyed “ecclesiastical privilege” to keep its Judicial Committees’ records confidential based on the separation of Church and State in the U.S. Constitution.  It was instead found that Watchtower’s committees are punitive rather than healing, and they are innately non-confidential in that they are made up of at three elders rather than being one-to-one.  Further, the committees send a copy of their records to the mother organization where those fall under the view of other elders, typists and data-entry operators.  Love & Norris lawfirm of Texas (817 732-7100) had a lead role in the case which the Associated Press also reported on after the settlement.

Phillip Garrido’s  brother Ron Garrido, also still of Brentwood, California, where they grew up, recently said that his brother is mentally ill but clever, knows how to work the system, had boasted of plans to get rich and start a church.  Their parents are elderly, the mother said to suffer from dementia at age eighty-eight.

Phillip Garrido writes on his blog voicesrevealed.blogspot.com for example that "The Creator has given me the ability to speak in the tongue of angels to provide a wake-up call that will in time include the salvation of the entire world."  His email is godsdesire@rocketmail.com, and a website he had but apparently did not develop so that it still deadends is at http://www.godsdesire.net/.  On his blog Garrido has claimed he could communicate directly with God by talking into a cardboard box.   Besides sharing his “God’s Desire” religion, Nancy is also said to have expressed that she too likes  forced sex.  Her husband has also been diagnosed as psychotic.  When Jaycee Lee Dugard was kidnapped, eyewitnesses said an Asian-looking woman had forced the girl into a fast getaway Ford.  Once when Phillip Garrido was gone six months due to a parole violation, she alone kept Jaycee and the two kids imprisoned.
Phillip Garrido walked into the FBI field office in San Francisco two days before his arrest and handed over a letter describing how he'd cured his disturbing sexual behaviors and how the information could be used to assist in curing sexual predators.  Later he went to the nearby University of California, Berkeley, with Jaycee’s two children to ask about hosting a “God’s Desire” event.

Special events manager Lisa Campbell, former police investigator, noted his “peculiar” manner, asked him to come back later at which time she had a campus police officer present.   Former nurse Allison Jacobs, 35, noticed the little girls wore drab dresses, seemed to avoid meeting his eye, the older one treating him like a god, both looking like brainwashed zombies.   She ran his name through a computer, found his sexual history, and called his parole officer to tell of her concern about Garrido’s daughters. The officer said “He doesn’t have any daughters.”   Her stomach sank.  She responded that he had said two girls with him were his daughters and they had his blue eyes. When the parole officer had him come in, Phillip Garrido brought along Jaycee and her two kids. 

He was moved to another room, and Jaycee, who was nicknamed Alyssa haltingly told who she really was and asked to speak to her mom by phone.  The mother at first thought it was a prank call and burst into tears.  Garrido was arrested, called a TV reporter and said he had already turned his life around as revealed by papers given the FBI.  It is not known if he in part or whole credited any teachings from the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses for his so-called conversion from pedophilia.

Neighbor kids had called Phillip Garrido “Creepy Phil;” his brother and neighbors described Nancy as like a robot in doing what he wanted.  Jaycee Dugard’s step-dad Carl Probyn, now a 56 year-old wallpaper hanger, had been wrongly suspected by some in-laws of being involved in the 1991 abduction.   The finding of Jaycee Dugard, now age 29, came as a relief: "I'm free now," he said. "They caught him and it's solved."  For years his wife, Jaycee’s mom Terry Probin, annually became depressed over the missing daughter.  The two finally separated amiably, communicating and staying friends, and she had recently received help from a counselor who said she needed to move her attention away from the kidnapping of her daughter.  She called her husband Carl after being called by Jaycee to tell him police had found her and she was alive.  Probyn was not at the hotel when wife Terry and Jaycee first reunited there.  However FBI agent Chris Campion witnessed the first reunion, saying Terry was ecstatic and both were overjoyed.


Back in November 2006 Neighbor Erika Pratt heard Phillip Garrido talking loudly to God while hammering to build another shed in his backyard.  Disturbed, she dialed the police and described Garrido as a psychotic sex addict living with children and having people in tents in his backyard.  An investigating officer spent a half hour interviewing Garrido on his front porch, did not enter the house or search the backyard, not seeing any probable cause, though warning of possible code violation according to Contra Costa County Sheriff Warren E Rupf.

In July 2009 police from a “multi-agency task force” came as part of a routine search, randomly ordered under the state’s paroled sexual offenders act but were not looking for anything specific so didn’t notice electrical wires from the house though a fence door concealed by a blue tarpaulin and into a 140 ft by 90 ft “backyard within a backyard.”  “Barriers had been built to obstruct viewing from the outside and prevent the victims contacting the outside world,” said another investigator.  Garrido had tents, showers and a chicken shed where the girls lived as well as a sound-proofed 10ft square structure which he called his church.

The deputy did not know Garrido was a registered sex offender although the sheriff’s department had the information, warned Garrido that the tents could be a code violation then left.  Garrido was a registered sex offender who met his parole officer every month over many years.  The officer checked to see that Garrido’s satellite-linked ankle bracelet worked but also never checked the back garden and its tent city visible for example via Google Earth.   Police twice visited the house in 2008, once to ask him about $18,000 said swindled from an elderly neighbor, although Garrido claimed a donation to his “Church of God’s Desire.”

Jaycee Dugard and her children, called Starlet and Angel, ages 11 and 15, are staying with their mother and Jaycee’s half-sister 19 year old Shayna.  They are hugging and crying together, planning a trip to Disneyland, playing games like checkers.  

Yearly about 50,000 children in the U.S. vanish never to be heard from again by their parents.   In 1972 Watchtower sent a directive to Jehovah’s Witness Bodies Of Elders telling them if a fellow elder confessed pedophilia and several years (later defined as 2 to 3 years) had passed and he seemed to still have “Jehovah’s blessing” which meant his crime had not become known beyond the elders, then he need not be deleted.   The result has been accumulative, the number and percentage of pedophiles increasing year by year from 1972 to this sec.

Former elder Bill Bowen, now of Nashville, Tennessee but then in Kentucky, blew the cover on Watchtower’s shielding of pedophiles and the story broke on Dateline NBC, CBS, CNN, BBC etc.  His silentlambs.org website has the most extensive information on the crisis, but outside of a brief interview with the FBI years ago, nothing more seems to have happened, at least not until up to this point.  Contra Costa County has a concentration of about 1,700 registered sex offenders, and Antioch and the area close to it have been called a haven for them.







http://www.cbsnews.com/blogs/2009/08/28/crimesider/entry5271998.shtml?tag=contentMain;contentBody  http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/2613413/Phillip-Garrido-You-will-be-impressed.html http://www.websleuths.com/forums/showthread.php?p=4098137






Night Stalker (rapist of elderly women) Convicted

Delroy Grant was convicted March 24, 2011, of raping, robbing and degrading elderly south London women (most in their 80s) as well as committing burglaries against them during 1992-2009.  Besides attacks on the victims for which he was tried, the other victims may have totaled up to 1000, although some newspapers mention only 200 or 500.  During trial Grant had also tried to frame one of his ex-wives, Jane Watson, and a son. 

The papers have made it clear that he was a Jehovah's Witness while committing many to most of the crimes, do not say he was expelled while on trial, although it is assumed that now that he is convicted he will more likely be disfellowshipped (expelled and shunned) by the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses.   Grant is the father of a number of children, a minicab driver from Honor Oak, southeast London. 

His so far current wife is still a Jehovah's Witness, is confined due to Multiple Sclerosis to a wheelchair after losing both legs.  Her family and Jehovah’s Witness congregation are said to be looking after her.  Delroy Grant sometimes went door-to-door with her, using the occasions to look for potential victims. 

To their neighbors he had seemed “warm, charming and always friendly.”  He enjoyed playing cricket and fishing, liked community barbeques at which he shared jokes and reminisced about his childhood in Jamaica.  While in Jamaica he had convictions for handling stolen merchandise, stealing, robbing a post office.

He is known to have married Janet Watson, had a relationship with Jane Finlay, married devout Jehovah's Witness Jennifer Edwards, still be married to Jennifer but prior to arrest was also enjoying a relationship with bank worker Barbara Stocks while staying at her two-bedroom home at least four nights per week.

As “the Night Stalker” he carefully cased homes in a wide radius, removed light bulbs, cut phone lines, then woke up terrified frail, elderly women with a gloved hand while shining a torch into their eyes.  He then engaged them in conversation and victimized them sometimes for hours. 

Police Chief Simon Foy branded Grant a “perverted, callous and violent individual” who attacked some of the most vulnerable people in society. Judge Peter Rook told Grant “You have been convicted of 29 offences of the utmost gravity” and added that he would consider giving the vicious Jehovah’s Witness rapist-burglar of old women an “indeterminate” (life) sentence.

Experts class Grant as a gerontophile, a person who seeks sexual gratification from the elderly.  Such persons sometimes also suffered abuse during childhood but thus far such abuse has not been found in his background.




Delroy Grant, the "Night Stalker," was finally sentenced March 25, 2011.  He received a "minimum" of 27 years with strong hints that it is likely to be extended for life.  It appears likely from the following quotes that when he goes up for review and the faint possible release from prison, he will be trying to capitalize on his being a very "Christian" man, a real "care-giver" type:

“Grant – a Jamaican-born Jehovah's Witness who did not swear on the bible when giving evidence – was a full-time carer for his second wife Jennifer.” http://www.thisiscroydontoday.co.uk/courts/Depraved-sex-attacker-devoted-carer/article-3370502-detail/article.html  “They married at Lewisham registry office in November 1991 and friends from the Jehovah’s Witness community were delighted with Jennifer’s choice of husband.” http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/crime/8403597/Night-Stalker-Delroy-Grant-profile.html



Convicted Of Murder

Elder who received multiple gunshots and died in Kingdom Hall building

Five Jehovah’s Witness elders were leaving a planning session at 8:23 PM, May 12, 2010, at a kingdom hall on Pioneer Street near Lowell, Oregon, when former JW Robert Riley Gonzales (34) allegedly approached, ordered the five elders back into the building at gun point, argued with and then shot JW elder Kenneth Harry Mort (47) multiple times, killing him on the spot.  Court records and testimony would later show that Gonzales had wanted to know The Truth: whether or not Mort had been spreading rumors of sexual abuse against him committed against a step-daughter.

After the murder Gonzales fled by foot then in a pickup three miles east until it bogged down on the West Boundary road for logging where some fifty officers including some in a helicopter found him and closed in.  After a police dog attacked and bit Gonzales multiple times, he had to be taken to McKenzie-Willamette Hospital, being later transferred to the Lane County jail.  Gonzales normally goes by the name Riley, the name of his father's family per Hispanic naming system.

The alleged shooter has hardly any record other than that in 2002 the slain elder Mort sought a restraining order against him and his ex-wife Teresa.  The one against Teresa was dismissed four days later; the one against Robert Riley Gonzales was appealed and ended in 2003. 

Gonzales' wife Teresa had also been the wife of the slain JW elder.  They had married five years previous to the killing and they lived only about one block from the Kingdom Hall. 

Mort had lived in that same house until July 2002 when he divorced his wife after almost 17 years.  In the application, Mort stated that starting June 24, 2002, Rober Riley Gonzales kept driving by and parking outside his house, had put a hand over his youngest daughter's mouth and scared her so that she couldn't breath, which was reported to himself and his older daughter.   

Also, Mort said he had  told Gonzales to stay away from his wife (soon to be ex-wife) and kids, to which Gonzales said he would be with them whenever his wife called, "like it or not." 

The dead elder’s friends said Kenneth Mort was “a good guy, husband and friend,” the co-owner of Hitch Pro and Tow, along with Craig Metger, which is on West 11th in Eugene, Oregon.  Others said they also thought well of both Gonazales and Mort.  Roxanne Long lives next to the Gonzales/Mort home on Hyland Lane.  She said she never suspected any problems and the slain elder and his alleged killer seemed very mild-mannered.  Jehovah's Witness member Lee Johnson called Mort "wonderful" and said "We know Riley too, and we've always been very fond of him as well."

Ultimately Gonzales guilty to killing Mort.  He was sentenced to 25 years with possibility of parole, will serve another 5 years for kidnapping.  A court had to decide The Truth about if had committed sexual abuse or it actually was backstabbing by the slain elder.  On February 9, a Grand Jury indicted Gonzales on two counts of first degree sex abuse and two counts of sodomy, to which he has pled not guilty to all charges. A trial was set for April 6, 2011.

The Lowell Congregation of Jehovah's Witnesses has thanked the police and added “Our Kingdom Hall has always been a place where people receive spiritual refreshment and it will continue to be so.”

However residents expressed dismay at the murder that took place in their small town.  Lowell resident Chris Slater who lives near the Kingdom Hall said:  “It’s nuts, man,” Salter said. “This is a small town. You don't hear of this happening very often, you know what I mean? I want to make sure everything's going to be okay. I want to make sure this town's safe.”

The Lane County Sheriff's Office turned the investigation over to the District Attorney's Office.  The alleged killer had not given any statement of motive and last heard had pled No Guilty.

http://kdrv.com/page/173794 includes video with Gonzales brother Nathan talking
http://www.kval.com/news/local/93656469.html includes photo of Gonzales

http://www.kval.com/news/93705914.html has photos of Mort and Gonzales; videotape  http://www.kmtr.com/mostpopular/story/Suspect-caught-in-deadly-shooting-at-Lowell-church/TMhD7OO4Ck2hIdZjkP0kmQ.cspx a posting notes Oregon has had other Jehovah’s Witness related murders etc  http://www.kval.com/news/local/93697849.html


Comments: One mystery is what the five elders had been planning at the time when the shooting occurred.  Was it a regular business meeting?  Or, for example, were the elders planning something such as a Judicial Committee disfellowshipping (harsh shunning) action against the alleged attacker or his wife?? 

JW elders have also increasingly become known for retaliating against JWs or ExJWs who have spoken against those of their peers, or themselves, who have sexually abused people. (http://www.silentlambs.org)  It is not known if Robert Riley Gonzales’ wife or children might have complained of such abuses or if there was some wholly different issue(s).  Many ExJWs complain JW elders are now stalking, not just visiting, people even after they quit being JWs; see here:


There have also been anecdotes of possibly pedophile or fanatical JW elders allegedly wiretapping bedrooms etc of JWs and ExJWs.  The ATF investigated an apparent suicide by fire-bomb of an elder at the Bates City Kingdom Hall building near Kansas City, Missouri, in late 2008; an unsolved shoot-and-run at a Columbia, Missouri, Kingdom Hall in mid-December 2006.

Also in Oregon there were the suicides or murders of a suspicious nature of the entire Robert Bryant family of former JWs who had moved to Oregon from California. 


David L Carter of Virginia alleged he had been poisoned by two elders in collaboration with a sibling, was under federal witness protection and he finally died in 2010. 

Tensions are mounting.  Federal officials need to take precautionary measures to help out such as by notifying the broader law enforcement and mental health communities, not after a crisis but now.



This gives the information released by the USA Department of Justice concerning the conviction of Joel Michael Garcia but unlike the string with comments given farther below does not note that he had been a Watchtower Society-appointed Ministerial Servant.  The sentence is for 14 years. http://www.justice.gov/usao/txs/releases/September%202010/092210%20Garcia.htm

This string gives inside details which it says pertain to the pedophile Ministerial Servant and allegedly regarding others:



Robert Edward Bill (54) a senior Jehovah’s Witness, businessman and teacher was sentenced at The Roe in North Wale. (UK) On March 11, 2007, Judge Philip Hughes sentenced Bill to six years for trying to abduct a girl (5) two years ago, 1 ½ years for indecently assaulting a child (7) ten years ago in Hollyrow and 6 months for possessing 730 child porn images.  The girl’s uncle had intervened and her mother ran down to her.  His wife Jacqueline and son David must do unpaid work due to having tried to destroy evidence and pervert the course of justice.  In the past Bill owned a playground equipment and design business.  For more details:  http://www.dailypost.co.uk/news/north-wales-news/2009/03/12/st-asaph-pervert-jailed-for-trying-to-snatch-girl-five-55578-23125213/  http://www.highbeam.com/doc/1G1-180299813.html

COMMENTS: The word "senior," apparently refers to this convicted pervert being prominent having in the past been an elder in a congregation of Jehovah's Witnesses, thus over the adults and the children there.  The article is dated 2009 but was only now seen on the internet posted on Watchtower Uncensored (WU) located on Facebook.com.  Richard B., commenting at WU, rightly says " Another disgraceful story for an organisation who claim to be the TRUE religion! Don't forget, repentance will gain your ticket to paradise! The WT should change the pic of the little boy playing with the lion cub and show a creepy man watching from behind the nearest tree."

Kizzie on jehovahs-witness.net commented "He attended the Kingdom Hall of Jehovah's Witnesses in Denbigh and held weekly bible studies at his home in St Asaph.   He did regular ministerial work, (in his quest to befriend families with little girls) We first met him when he and other witnesses were doing thier field work/ministry" and also "a large number of the congregation, elders included, actually knew all along that he was a paedophile and molesting young girls , but they managed to keep it secret until Bob became more and more careless" ...   he stopped being an elder when he was found to have indecently assaulted the seven year old girl ...

Kizzie also wrote "It was actually the CID who discovered that members of the congregation, including elders knew of his offences but had until his at least, second arrest for atempted child abduction managed to keep it secret. For instance it was not reported to police when, once he'd commited so many vile acts and 'got away with it' he became careless and was discovered to have molested the youngest daughter of one of the congregation..."


See also http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=%2B%22Robert+Edward+Bill%22+child&aq=f&aqi=&aql=&oq=&gs_rfai=


New Hampshire’s state Supreme Court informed Jonathan Perfetto of Manchester that he has no constitutional right to attend any kingdom hall with children even though the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses offered to have a Watchtower elder be with him.



Comment: Watchtower lacks common sense and ethics. No wonder Jehovah’s Witnesses are increasingly ignoring Watchtower while She wails like a spurned witch.  The kids need protected, not the perverts!  Yuck!


Yorkshire Ripper
People Murdered By The Yorkshire Ripper

Peter Sutcliffe, called the Yorkshire Ripper, was convicted of murdering 13 people in the United Kingdom.  According to a news article he "has been befriended over the last 15 years by Jehovah’s Witnesses, who are emphatic that he now shows remorse for his crimes."  Brizzy, posting on jehovahs-witness.net points out that the Watchtower Society ruling over Jehovah's Witnesses like the mass murderer but hate herself, calling her an evil apostate.  Instead of helping murderers, pedophiles (see silentlambs.org), etc, Watchtower should switch to protecting its members and the public!  Read in the blue box at the following link: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1295224/Yorkshire-Ripper-Peter-Sutcliffe-spend-rest-life-bars.html



Man Jailed for Life over Religious Killing  Nov. 8, 2009

A man who murdered the mother of his 13 children by stabbing her 17 times did so to save her from sin, the WA (West Australian) Supreme Court was told today.

Kenneth Pickett was sentenced to life in jail with a minimum 20 year period behind bars after pleading guilty to the brutal murder of Andrea Pickett outside a North Beach house in January.

Pickett had been released from jail only two months earlier after twice breaching a violence restraining order taken out by Ms Pickett and also threatening to kill her.

The court was told Pickett was an extremely religious man who killed his former wife after the breakdown of their 23 year marriage because he thought she was in another relationship and that went against his interpretation of the bible.

Justice Peter Blaxell said Pickett who is a Jehovah's Witness continued to justify the killing by saying he saved his former wife from sin.

The court was told on the night of the murder Pickett broke into a house in North Beach and chased his former wife outside the home before beginning to stab her as she held her three-year-old child in her arms.

Outside court members of Ms Pickett’s extended family criticised the system that allowed multiple VROs to be broken and ending up in the tragic death.



Comment: Are the courts and legislators in the U.K., the U.S. and around the world listening!  When will you start protecting our children?  JW kids, ExJWs' kids, the Public's?!  Stop ignoring our cries for help.



"Tonyhag" on jehovahs-witness.net says this pervert was an Elder in Bransholme Congregation in Hull

Called "Brother" in Kingdom halls, George Cockerill of Hull, England, was actually a pervert feeding on JW kids and women, allowed to do so by his fellow Elders -- "Tonyhag" has posted that Cokerill had been an Elder at Bransholme Congregation when he (Tonyhag) was there; read on:


The Judge called this pedophile creep "the most terrible hypocrite" and also remarked upon his hiding behind religion during his 40 years of rapes and assaults against JW girls and women.  Click for more details:



COMMENTS: Bill Bowen, has the silentlambs.org website and has said he believes every JW congregation now has one or more pedophiles hiding in it like this pervert.  From what I see the Bodies Of Elders only expel their pedophiles AFTER others have already exposed them.  

They say they take action, well, they sure do, but after the fact.  Coverups are obviously continuing.  If Watchtower cared they'd do an internal investigation starting at their top. 

Watchtower clearly favors its pedophile Elders over the children and women who cry out for help and justice.

There should be absolutely no statute of limitations so that perverts hurting Little Ones can be prosecuted regardless of however many years have passed.

As a comment, JW parents must stay alert for pedophiles also sometimes murder, wiretap the bedrooms of those they fear such as upset parents, etc, etc!  "Yea shall know them by their fruits!"



Tim Gardner was appointed ministerial servant by Watchtower for the Richmond, Missouri, congregation, just east of Kansas City.  Convicted, he is out again now, believed again being sheltered among mostly unsuspecting Jehovah's Witnesses in the Orrick and Richmond, Missouri, areas while knocking alongside them on the equally mostly unknowing Public's doors.  The local Body Of Elders and the Elders in the world headquarters Service Department did a shameful deed in appointing him.  The sentencing Judge was reported in Richmond's Daily News as saying Gardner's molestations were the very worst he'd ever known.


Curtis Thompson

Curtis Shane Thompson, (Washington state) convicted of sex offending and murder

A King County jury let Curtis Thompson go after deciding a sexually violent predator, but he attacked three Seattle women less than a year later, so was charged again.  Later prosecutors said he had also committed first-degree murder during a rape on August 23, 2004 of 45 year old Deborah Bryars who lived in a Ravenna-area apartment.  A few hours after killing her by three stabs in the back of the neck and once under an arm, Thompson also attacked two women at a University District apartment complex.  He robbed one and forced the other to partly strip.  Prosecutors asked for his bail to be doubled to $10 million.  All in hall there were 14 charges against the 47 year old.  He was also charged with breaking into a woman's Eastlake apartment, raping her and attempting to destroy the evidence with bleach.  His trial has been delayed out of concern about his mental competency and after he fired his attorneys.  It was found that he was mentally competent to be tried although slightly paranoid and likely to be "challenging to have as a client."

Thompson has admitted to committing crimes starting at age 10.  He has also shown little remorse when telling a prison psychologist that he had stabbed a young man and left him paralyzed. He was convicted in 1985 of breaking into the homes, raping four women and attempting to rape a fifth.  He admitted then that he had committed as many as 200 burglaries and seven rapes.  In 2003, King County prosecutors sought to have him locked away indefinitely at a treatment center for violent sex offenders, but his family and “others” helped portray him as a man who'd embraced the Jehovah's Witness faith and turned his life around.  Several jurors who let him go were "devastated" to learn that Thompson was accused of new crimes.  P-I reporter Tracy Johnson can be reached at 206-467-5942 or tracyjohnson@seattlepi.comtracyjohnson@seattlepi.comtracyjohnson@seattlepi.comtracyjohnson@seattlepi.com.

Flyer that was circulated in the Seattle Area when Brother Thompson was first released from prison due to his brothers and sisters testifying as character witnesses in his behalf.  It is of interest that Jehovah’s Witnesses appear to have a pattern of testifying as character witnesses on behalf of rapists and child molesters.  Note the following link to previous testimony in this regard. http://www.silentlambs.org/education/pberry.cfm

Also about Thompson



Another Jehovah's Witness named Sanchez, a woman, was also in the news in San Antonio in 2009.  Otty Sanchez was convicted of murdering and cannibalizing the body of her 3 month old baby and then sentenced to treatment by reason of insanity.  It is not known if she and the admitted pedophile Ramon Sanchez, also of San Antonio, are related.




The string above leads to a discussion about Delroy Grant, whom London police allege is the Night Stalker, who raped up to 200 mostly senior women.



JW Elder Daniel Stevens Fitzwater of Nevada, convicted of raping multiple girl children among Jehovah's Witnesses.  Watchtower officials should be ashamed of this pervert, do more for victims.  Instead, pedophile Elders like Fitzwater have been re-instated and sent back preaching door-to-door.  Should any JW suppose that such perverts never wiretap the bedrooms of regular JWs?  JW kids and adults are in danger from such pedophiles all the more when they become Elders. http://www.silentlambs.org/education/dateline_trans.cfm



Clement Pandello confessed he'd molested his own granddaughter as a Jehovah's Witness (JW) in New Jersey and was sentenced to therapy and five years probation in 1989.  Son Carl told DATELINE NBC that Watchtower-appointed Elders told him and his wife, Barbara:

“We should just let it go, that it's not Jehovah's time to deal with it.” 

Watchtower called Carl and his wife liars.  He had been disfellowshipped twice yet welcome back and sent back preaching at doors!    An article in Der Spiegel, a highly reputable German magazine, noted that Pandello was disfellowshiped only 18 months the first time before Watchtower reinstated him as a JW "in good standing."  

Later it was determined that he had been molesting little girls for 40 years including another grandchild so that in 1994 a second disfellowshipping of him occured and yet in 1996 the Watchtower's Elders again welcomed him back as a JW.

Indeed DATELINE NBC found him in 2002 going door-to-door, a JW in “good standing,” preaching to members of the Public, men-women-and-children who know nothing of his record.  

Carl Pandello noted “He's a sexual predator. When he goes door-to-door, he has a craving for young, juvenile girls, as he puts it.  He's looking at that child, having those immoral thoughts in his mind while he's there



The U.S. Marshalls, Silentlambs.org and TV's series America's Most Wanted are after Watchtower ministerial servant Rick McLean concerning the rapes of many Jehovah's Witness children.  It is believed he is receiving help from Watchtowerites while still on the run.

Among many other positive actions, Silentlambs has a nationwide campaign to alert the public and Jehovah’s Witnesses of a fugitive that is on the 15 most wanted by the U. S. Marshalls Service.  Rick McLean is a “serial child molester” that used his knowledge of the inner workings of Jehovah’s Witnesses to access and molest numerous children for many years.  McLean was a ministerial servant and pioneered (more hours in door to door work) and often took children on camping trips to build trust and allow him access.  

We believe that McLean may have assumed a new identity and may be pretending to be a new convert to a congregation of Jehovah’s Witnesses.  With his knowledge of the inner workings due to his long association with JWs this would be simple for him to do.  As a JW member he would be active in calling on the homes of the public which would allow him further access to children by offering bible studies.  

is very cunning and deceptive, it is estimated that he molested over 30 children and used the religion as a way to gain the trust of children and cover his actions.  For those reasons we are issuing a one page flyer to be distributed to Kingdom Halls, (Churches for JWs) public bulletin boards, laundry mats, churches and any place where public information can be displayed. 

Silentlambs is making the flyer available in two formats, Word and PDF, to download click on the links below and then make copies for distribution in your local community.      

Word Format Flyer

PDF Format Flyer

He has been on the run for years, he is a compulsive molester of little girls 5-12 years of age.  If you know or see anyone that matches his description calling at your home or in a congregation of Jehovah’s Witnesses please follow the instructions on the flyer for your safety.

If you would like further information contact silentlambs at 1 877-WTABUSE or 1 877 982-2873 or email at   info@silentlambs.org  

Also there are some more details located at these links,







Jesus Manuel Cano, Bethel staffer orginally from Mexico as well as a voyeur and pedophile preying on boys, the Watchtower Society time and again approved sending him to give Bible talks in different states and Puerto Rico.
Click to see his Bethel I.D. card etc.: http://www.silentlambs.org/bethelitechildmolester.htm


You're looking at Gilbert Simenthal, smouldering with anger after caught and convicted for pedophilia despite the efforts of Watchtower-directed Elders.  Click to read more http://www.silentlambs.org/ElderprotectPedophile.htm



"Found guilty in December 2006 of acts of sexual abuse of a minor – acts which took place between 1985 and 1992 – Marcel Simonin, 67 years old, formerly an Elder among the Jehovah’s Witnesses of Châteauguay at the time of the crimes, has been sentenced to serve nine months in prison. He will serve the sentence in the community."

How strange that the judge only gave this guy nine months.  Châteauguay is a suburb of Montreal.  By now he's probably back to knocking on doors around there, maybe "serving" again as an Elder.   Or, he may have to wait seven years after having served time, then get to become an elder again.  

Watchtower cares about, loves its so-called "repentant" elders, but when JWs speak out against them they are labeled an evil, anti-God "Apostate."   



"Michael Porter pleaded guilty to 24 counts of indecent assault and gross indecency on children.  A predatory pedophile has walked free from court after admitting carrying out a string of sex attacks on children.   Michael Porter, 38, used his trusted position as a ministerial servant in the Jehovah's Witnesses to prey on young children in Clevedon, Somerset over a 14-year period.   One of his victims was an 18-month-old baby.   Porter, of Okehampton Close, North London, pleaded guilty to 24 counts of indecent assault and gross indecency on children at Bristol Crown Court today.  But Judge Tom Crowther opted not to jail him and handed him a three-year community rehabilitation order after hearing he had undergone therapy.  Porter was also banned from working with anyone under the age of 18 and put on the Sex Offenders Register.  But the sentence provoked a fierce reaction from Porter's own sister.  She said the "ludicrous" punishment was an insult to his victims. "

Read more here:


Above is an official letter by the Watchtower Society headquarters over Jehovah's Witnesses.  It was sent to two Elders in Florida.  It shows there is an official policy applied all over the U.S. and beyond to welcome murderers and cover their crimes as long as they were committed before they get baptized as a JW member in good standing. 

Crazy as it may sound to most people, the top heads over JWs and their appoint Elders down the line feel it is following Christ example to protect murders from prosecution allowing them to eat with and accept as approved members, privately confessed criminals that request baptism.

The Elders handbook “Pay Attention to Yourselves and All the Flock” (kept secret from non-Elder JWs as they are "not able to bear" such things) makes the following comment for un-baptized ones that commit murder or other crimes against non JW victims.

“As suggested by the Apostle Paul’s comments regarding Onesimus, a person who was guilty of illegal activities before coming to a knowledge of the truth is not required to settle these things with the authorities prior to baptism.  W78 9/15 pp.30-31”

To clarify what the directive in the elders book means note the quote from the Watchtower article cited as a reference:

“However, in some instances the guilty individual does not know all the places or persons from whom he has stolen. Or the crime may be something that he has no way of reversing. He might have caused someone’s death. Conscience-stricken though he be, he cannot bring that life back—only Jehovah can. (John 5:28, 29) But even though he cannot reverse the past, he should throw himself on God’s mercy and seek forgiveness based on Jesus’ sacrifice. The Bible pointedly tells us that this is what thieves and extortioners did in the first century; they were ‘washed clean, sanctified and declared righteous in the name of Jesus Christ and with the spirit of our God.’—1 Cor. 6:9, 10; 1 Pet. 4:1-4.”

“It must be acknowledged that if someone with a criminal past who accepts Christianity does not get the matter legally straightened out before baptism, his past might later become public knowledge; he might even be apprehended and imprisoned. That development, besides giving him a bad public reputation, might seem to reflect unfavorably on the Christian congregation. But Jesus was criticized for eating with and accepting sinners and tax collectors to be his disciples. His response to that was that he came to save sinners; he came to heal the sick, not the healthy.—Matt. 9:10-13.”

When they get baptized law breakers are given a fresh start with all crimes against humanity washed clean by baptism and protected by the policies of head Elders over Jehovah’s Witnesses.  This little known fact allows for the organization to hide murders, child molesters, illegal aliens, thieves, rapists, and about any other criminal activity.  Elders are routinely advised to cover up and protect such crimes by using “ecclesiastical privilege” as a basis to protect the freedom of criminals. The public and regular JWs need to be aware of this policy as well as the importance of reporting any past or present criminal activity that you as an individual may be aware of regarding JW members.

(Preceding mostly from the following: http://www.silentlambs.org/MurderersProtected.htm)


“Judicial Committee files are kept even after your death at Bethel but local elders are supposed to destroy their local copies after seven years, which some do and others do not.  The letters of recommendation that get passed to the next kingdom hall's elders often contain many cruel falsifications, but citizens of the United States are not usually allowed to see either the Judicial Committees file records or the letters-of-recommendation about themselves with this based on the separation of church-and-state. 

Those in the European Union it would appear are allowed by EU law to see the documents and I think this may hold true also for Canadian Jehovah's Witnesses.  However the Watchtower Society has its "creative" ways of getting around such laws.  For example they can advise elders to read a letter or file then destroy it locally although a copy is kept in the U.S. at the Bethel headquarters and the elders in your new kingdom hall simply keep in their minds or "private" notes whatever was said in the orginal documents.

Another clever way to backstab members is for them to say nothing specific about you but to say something like "this brother would greatly benefit from the disciplining applied to Job"  or even less specifically "Proverbs ## : ## comes to mind when thinking of this sister."   Also they can  "confidentially" telephone what they think of you to the next kingdom hall etc.

If you find yourself on the "outs" with the elders in one kingdom hall what may happen is this.  They can act so-so to lukewarm nice to you while you are at their kingdom hall, then send a letter recommending you be put under severe discipline at the next hall which gets carried out there for no reason that you can figure out.  That next hall's elders may observe or spy on you about six months then start working to "refine" you. 

They may not even know whatever it is that the previous elders disliked about you but feel "honor-bound" to act in line with the recommmendations.  You will be expected to take the "tough love" treatment the whole time until you move to still another kingdom hall.  There, if you do not talk "disloyally" about how the previous hall's elders "mistreated" you or other people but you do pioneer constantly and attend all the meetings, then they might just start giving you a few priveleges.

I cannot say this is done at everyone of the 90,000 or so congregations earthwide, but I can and do say it is done at those that I know of in the United States.  It may not hold true for all U.S. congregations but believe me it holds true for all too many.   There are good elders but there are also snakes who act nice to your face and gleefully stab you in the back just as Mother Bethel pleases and allows.

Maybe five years ago at a Ministerial Training School in the U.S. elders were told to start administering their own discipline at their own kingdom halls while a person attended there instead of passing along the recommendation that they undergo fire from the next body of elders.  This is what was taught "officially" but "unofficially" the word was "you can ignore what was taught because it was just one of those things that was taught for appearances to protect the Governing Body and its staff up in Bethel in Brooklyn."

Yes, there's too much of this that goes on.  Hope this helps.”  (Nancee Park at http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/35191/1/Secret-Letters-and-files)

The following is not directed toward any one particular cult such as Scientology, Jehovah's Witnesses, Mormons etc.   Too, criminal misconduct like wiretapping can be done by criminals in any group including mainstream churches.  Good and bad people are entwined in all groups.

However groups given to causing people to bleed to death, sheltering pedophiles and other so-called "repentant" but highly dangerous criminals, etc, are more prone to be heavily involved in such activities.

A lot of the illegal wiretapping done by people in various cults is done allegedly for noble, "righteous" purposes such as watching, disciplining in righteousness, purifying and sifting out “bad” members,  For example, one excuse is to catch and expel anyone thought to be doing unapproved non-missionary position sex, yes, including married couples.

Other excuses are to protect the local body of elders, the mother organization and/or local pedophiles whom they shelter and hide, to satisfy the elders’ own busy-body peeping-Tom inclinations, to spot and expel apostates meaning those speaking against the mother organization or local elders, etc. 

For example elders may talk against a certain movie or TV series they listen in closely to hear who criticises them for having done so.  Or one elder may come to your house to talk or social then leave after saying or doing something odd, then he or those collaborating will listen in to what you said after he left.  

If your mobile phone’s battery runs out fast, it may be because it is being electronically tapped, thus using up the energy charge faster.  If you get a hang-up call it may actually be from a wiretapping elder or his wife; using a method called hook-switch bypass.


Spying elders and their assistants can also remotely see what is on your computer screen if they get your password or your computer system is not well-enough Wi-Fi protected.  Too, there are now extremely tiny-sized microchips that enable eavesdropping.  Although not for sale to the general public, cult policemen know who to buy them from. 

Similarly there are tiny or nano-sized sound transmitters for harassing from long-distance with sounds or recorded human voices, sometimes even your own or that of a marriage mate.
  Cultists love to try to cause trouble between non-compliant married couples.

No, cult police or detectives are not bothered by Bible-based moral objections.  The mother organization makes its own rules and laws in the name of God.  It teaches that when God’s law (=the organization’s law) conflicts with the laws of human governments, then God’s law is greater.

Yes, they know that scripture says to be a busybody is to be no better than a murderer, but they figure that what they are doing is okay anyway because it is for the sake of righteousness.  In their own magazines they sometimes put into print that wiretapping is wrong, but secretly they do it anyway.

Sometimes elders will tell you things you said or did while you thought no one else was around.  Indeed there was no one around except by electronic means.  They may also give facial expressions such as a leer when talking on some subject, or suddenly out of the blue talk about a subject for no apparent reason.

Do elders have direct orders to wiretap from “Mother” organization’s headquarters officials?  Very possibly so in some cases although it’s not easy to prove.   Authorization for such illegal activities will typically, to go by perceived headship sanctioning from some scriptures, come from the head of a congregation.  However, a favorite tactic is for the head or coordinating elder to say he doesn't know everything that goes on, or for a cooperating person to hint that he himself or a group controls what goes on rather than the head elder.

Many people are in a cult decades before discovering or figuring out that it is an actual cult like this.  The cult leaders believe that if a person has true love, then s/he will not do anything to turn in the wrongdoings such as wiretapping to authorities, thus putting them at risk of prison.

Some on finally discovering that wiretapping etc goes on will expose the cultists' misdoings, possibly even name names.  Therefore the cultists may go after the persons to try to get them to return or else to kill them literally or get them to speak against others still in the organization so that they may be declared spiritually dead, etc. 

The best recourse for persons who become the victims of such cult harassment is, as with any crimes, to involve law enforcement either doing so openly or by informative letters naming names, giving details etc.  Those who openly go to local police or the FBI need to try to document events for example by keeping a journal, photographing cars with people watching your house or apartments, etc.

Victims sometimes wonder, "Why me?  What makes me so important to them?  Why all their effort and energy?" 

There can be any number of reasons.  One major reason is that they are terrified you will get them arrested.  They know that you, not they, hold all the power once you become aware of what they have been doing.

Remember, a cult is not necessarily a little tiny group with nutcases in it.  It can also be a large group with many innocent people in it who however are misled by criminally fanatic devotees. 

The deaths, injuries and harm from cults has been readily seen in the Jonestown massacre.  With other larger but more subtle or sneaky cults, the deaths, injuries and harm are also there but are harders to see or spot.  When you do see a cult, though, one way or another, get out of it and stay out of it.

The Watchtower Society over Jehovah's Witnesses has had the Elders it appoints and trains to hide and shelter pedophiles including Elders going back at the least to a 1972 directive, but this brand new U.S. Department Of Justice website makes it easy for active, fading and former JWs to type names into its search box and instantly see if person have been convicted of pedophilia or other sexual crimes in any of the 50 states or Puerto Rico.  Please pass this link on to other people so they can better protect their children and grandkids.   It is named the Dru Sjodin website in memory of a woman (non-JW) murdered by Alphonso Rodriguez Jr. in 2002, and was developed as part of the Adam Walsh Act which still needs to be fully funded as of July 2009.  Please help get word of it to active JWs too.  Mail, email, post, share this link:

Back in 1972 the Watchtower Society over Jehovah's Witnesses issued a written directive telling their Bodies Of Elders they need not delete as fellow Elders those who confessed to having molested one or more children provided several years (2-3) had gone by and the pedophiles still seemed to have "Jehovah's blessing," meaning their crime(s) had not become common knowledge beyond the other Elders. 

Therefore and logically, year after year since then the number and percentage of pedophile Elders and non-Elder pedophiles among JWs have risen.  Watchtower headquarters would rather shield and protect the pedophiles among JWs than properly inform parents to protect the children of JWs and the public.  Pedophiles are almost 100% statistically likely to reoffend, often molesting hundreds of our Little Ones, but for Watchtower its image matters more.

What Watchtower is doing is unChristian for Christ himself says in the Bible that anyone who molests one of the Little Ones would do better to have a millstone tied about his neck then be tossed into the sea.  In the Old (Hebrew-Aramaic) Scriptures, it is clear that perverts were not shielded and sheltered but dealt with decisively.

The will of Jehovah and His Son, Jesus Christ, the "most" faithful and discreet slave ever of God, is that the kids be protected.  Too bad Watchtower doesn't seem to know or respect even its own Bible.  Their light as to child molestation policy is sheer darkness, beyond any doubt at all greatly, incessantly grieving Jehovah's Holy Spirit. 

Watchtower says there must be two witnesses to an act of pedophilia before it can believe it has been done, that a child's word doesn't count.  Well, the child's "body" also speaks the truth.  It's one witness; other witnesses can be the crime scene investigators and doctors.

Watchtower requires only one eyewitness to an act of adultery, yet says it has to have two or more to believe pedophilia has been committed.  Watchtower also "dignifies" pedophilia by calling it a "sin" instead of "crime" as all decent members of human society do.  Are the men sitting in the Watchtower governing offices protecting some of their buddies?  Little doubt of it, and at the expense of our kids and grandkids. 

Send letters to inform active JWs, especially those who have children and grandkids!


Most grassroots JWs don't know until informed that since 1972 Watchtower has told Bodies Of Elders (BOEs) they don't have to delete as fellow Elders those confessed to child molestation if 2-3 years have passed without the molestation becoming widely known beyond the BOEs.  This has caused pedophile numbers and their crimes to keep growing. 

The pedophiles are called "repentant sinners," their doings kept secret from unsuspecting JW women and kids, they go to the public's doors where more kids are.  Yet pedophiles are almost 100% likely to victimize more kids, often commit other crimes such as peeping-tommery; even stalk, harass, wiretap to try to intimidate and silence outspoken adults.  All this while the pedophiles and sheltering Elders claim they act "in Jehovah's name"! 

There are some decent Elders such as Bill Bowen who exposed this and founded Silentlambs.  Come help us fight back. Christ at Luke 17:2 says the "Little Ones," the kids and their safety comes first.  Click
http://www.silentlambs.org to see  news reports from CBS, NBC, BBC etc and donate now.  Make checks payable to: silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029


These are towns for which alleged Jehovah's Witness pedophiles have been reported to Silentlambs.org, but many, many more have pedophiles than appear here.  Watchtower refuses to give names of other towns, plus keeps sending so-called "repentant" pedophiles JWs (thousands, mostly Elders and Ministerial Servants) door-to-door" alongside innocent, unsuspecting JW women and their children!

Alabama Marion Junction, Sylacauga

Alaska Anchorage, Palmer

Arizona Glendale, Arizona City, Glendale Tucson Phoenix Parker

Arkansas   Conway, Hot Springs, Little Rock, Mammoth Spring, Monticello, Texarkana

   Adelanto Arcadia  Anderson, Aliso Viejo, Alpine Bishop Boulder Creek, Booneville , Burney, Canyon Country, Carmichael, Clairemont, Colfax, Concord, Encinitas,  Forrest Park, Fresno, Fullerton, Gerber, Glen Cove, Gilroy, King City, La Costa, Lake Elsinore, Lake Tahoe, Larkspur, Lindsay, Lone Pine, Long Beach, Loomis, Los Angeles, Madera, Manteca, Marietta, Marysville, Monterrey, North Cypress, Oakland, Oceanside, Olivehurst, Oroville, Placerville, Paradise Valley, Petaluma, Philo, Pollock Pines, Porterville, Red Bluff, Roseville, Rocklin, Sacramento, Salinas, San Bernardino, San Diego, San Jose, Santa Clarita, Santa Cruz, Santa Maria, Santa Rosa, Sebastopol, Shell Beach, Stockton, Temple City, Truckee, Ukiah, Universal City, Union City, Visalia, Vista, Weaverville, Wilmington, Westminister, Whittier, Woodland, Yorkville

Colorado Durango, Grand Junction, Marcos  

Connecticut Fairfield, Guilford, Meridian, New Haven, Norwich, Plainville, Southington


District of Columbia  

Apopka, Bradenton, Clearwater, Clifton Park, Dade City, Daytona Beach, Fort Walton Beach, Iverness, Jacksonville, Lakeland, Lake Placid, Lee, Longwood, Lutz, Miami, Naples,  Ormand Beach, Palm Beach, Palmetto, Plant City, St Petersburg, Tarpon Springs

Georgia   Atlanta, Danielsville, Hartwell, Hazelton, Loganville, Rosewell, Savannah, Vidalia

Hawaii  Honolulu Kihei

Idaho  Boise
Illinois Belvidere, Canton, Centralia, Chicago, Decauter, Gillespie, Litchfield, Tempe,  

Waukegon, Zion

Indiana Anderson, Crawfordsville, Fort Wayne, Franklin, Greencastle, Huntington, Indianapolis, Mecca  

Iowa Davenport, Des Plaines, Harlan, Mount Prospect, Perry, Souix City

Kansas   (alleged though not listed with Silentlambs: Topeka)

Kentucky  Covington, Draffenville, Frankfort, Frenchburg, Lexington, Louisville, Mayfield,

Mt Sterling, Murray, Paducah  

Louisiana   Chalmette, Kenner, Jena, Lake Charles, Metairie, Morgan City, New Orleans, Westlake

Maine  Stetson

Maryland   Baltimore, Salisbury

Massachusetts Cape Cod, Franklin, Gardner, Milford, New Bedford, Oxford, Southbridge

 Cedar Springs, Detroit, Evart, Flat Rock, Flint, Grand Rapids, Iron River, Muskegon,

Taylor, Trenton

Minnesota   Annandale, Apple Valley, Baudette, Montevideo, New Brighton, Pine City,Thief River Falls

Mississippi Jackson

Convicted child molester Timothy Gardner
Ray County, Missouri, near Kansas City

Missouri  Brookfield, Huntsville, Kansas City, Moberly, Overland, Richmond, Springfield, St Ann, St Joseph, St Louis

Montana Butte 

Nebraska     Alliance, Omaha

Nevada   Carson City, Elko, Ely, Fallon, Las Vegas, Yerington

New Hampshire   Franklin, Hapstead, Tilton

New Jersey
   Atlantic City, Bayville, Hackensack, Mahwah, Middletown, Millville, Newark,

Nutley, Pompton Lakes

New Mexico   Los Alamos

New York Albany, Bolton Landing, Brooklyn, Harlem, Hudson, Lyons, Middletown, Queens, Sebring City, Sloatsburg, Staten Island, Sunnyside Monroe, Webster, Yonkers

North Carolina  Chapel Hill, Concord, Kernersville, North Winston, Plymouth, Raleigh,

Rockingham, Salem, Salisbury, Shelby

North Dakota  

   Columbus, Gallipolis, Logan, Mansfield, Mentor, North Lewisburg, Springfield,


Oklahoma   Del City, Midwest City, Oakhurst, Oklahoma City, Sapulpa, Tulsa

Oregon  Albany, Corvallis, Crater Lake, Diamond Lake, Grants Pass, Gresham, Jackson Creek, Lakeview, McMinnville, Medford, Merlin, Portland, Roseburg, Salem, Sheridan, Venta

Pennsylvania   Beaver, Bellevue, Colver, Easton, Oreland, Philadelphia

Rhode Island  Prudence Island, Quincy, Scituate

South Carolina  Charleston, Rock Hill, Summerville, Sumter

South Dakota   Sioux Falls

Tennessee   Acworth, Adamsville, Gallatin, LaFollette, Marretta, Memphis, Nashville

Texas   Amarillo, Austin, Alvin, Bedford, Dallas, El Paso, Fort Worth, Houston, Irving,

Pearland, Plano, Port Arther, Richland Hills, San Antonio, Temple, Tyler, Waco

   Clearfield, Richfield

Vermont   Bellows Falls

Virginia   Alexandria, Coeburn, Colonial Heights, Front Royal, Manassas, Radford, Richlands, Vallejo

Washington   Bellingham, Edmonds, Everett, Friday Harbor, Marysville, Mount Vernon, Mount Lake Terrace, Oroville, Port Townsend, Puyallup, Renton, Seattle, Spokane, Sumas, Vancouver, Wenatchee

West Virginia   Beckley, Charleston

Wisconsin  Baraboo, Elkhorn, Madison, Oconto Falls, Phillips, Sparta, Saint Francis, Superior

Wyoming   Caspe, Douglas, Riverton, Wausau

Canada  Bowness, Calgary, Regina, Saskatchewan 

Sweden  Haninge, Laholm

United Kingdom   Kent, Ramsgate, Slough, Berkshire

Gilbert Simental, convicted child molester
Riverside County, California

The string above leads to a discussion about Delroy Grant, whom London police allege is the Night Stalker, who raped up to 200 mostly senior women.



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As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.


As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.

As part of Christian ministry you are asked to please help abused children by donating to the nonprofit Silentlambs (silentlambs.org).  For example it spotlights that the Watchtower Society over Jehovah’s Witnesses keeps sending pedophiles whom its Bodies Of Elders deem “repentant” to preach at doors although pedophiles are nearly 100% likely to reoffend.  Donate today to Silentlambs, PO Box 311, Calvert City, KY 42029. This appeal was written by the Fellowship of Christian Witnesses (christianwitnesses.com), offering joy and unity by love regardless of different beliefs.  As Jesus Christ, God’s Most Faithful Slave has noted, there is more happiness in giving than receiving.  (Acts 20:35)  Our Father in heaven rewards the kindness of those helping victims of child abuse and others in need.


Silentlambs - Ten Years Assisting Jehovah’s Witnesses

2010 will mark the tenth year of Silentlambs as an organization for protecting children.  The beginnings of the organization were simple.  I (WH Bowen) wrote a letter

of resignation as an elder due to being told by the legal department to not report a child molester. The purpose was to take the right action in order to report as well as protect the child.  That letter was posted on a forum called H20.

After being told my resignation was accepted and nothing would be done I went to the media with the issue. Hundreds of emails and phone calls confirmed this was not just a one of a kind problem.  The PR department for Jehovah’s Witnesses went into high gear to deny that there was any problem with child abuse not being reported or that they ever advised anyone not to report allegations of abuse.  Home office interviewed my father and used a clip where he said, “My son is just not telling the truth.” Then they distributed this to media in four states.  A local sub CO gave a special ‘local needs’ talk in which he stated it was a lie.  On a late night in February of 2001 I wrote an essay called “The Day the Lambs Roared”


The story was a metaphor of what I hoped could be accomplished if victims could find their voice.  A week later I sold two JW books and with that money started the Silentlambs website.  The simple purpose of the website was encapsulated in the mission statement.


True to that mission we attempted to give abuse survivors a voice to the media to speak out. To date Silentlambs has supported 22 documentaries in 9 different countries along with hundreds of newspaper and magazine stories. An important moment was when we got a ¾ page article in the New York Times.


After repeatedly stating they would never disfellowship anyone for speaking out on abuse I was disfellowshipped on 8/15/02 for doing so.  Interestingly I made my own announcement when the local elders became afraid to make the announcement.


After steadfastly holding they never advise anyone to not report abuse on May 28, 2002 Dateline played a recording of the Legal Department advising me to not only not report abuse but to “Leave it in Jehovah’s hands.”

So they were proven to be liars before the public and any of the brothers and sisters that viewed the program. They even tried to disfellowship everyone on the program two weeks before it aired after just three months earlier sending a letter to Dateline stating the reason they would not appear on the program is that they did not want to appear adversarial with their brothers and sisters on the interview. 

The Silentlambs March was viewed by many as a protest but the reality of the matter is that it showed just how obtuse leadership of the organization had become. Numerous times to media JW policy on abuse stated they were honoring a biblical edict of “two eye-witnesses” before a child could be believed.  That principle states that any member in good standing can have the right to produce witnesses to wrongdoing before an impartial committee and then provide the basis for scriptural action to be taken. 

As a Jehovah’s Witness in good standing in May 2002 I wrote a letter to the Service Department of Jehovah’s Witnesses asking for a committee to be established to hear eye witness testimony for scriptural wrongdoing of the governing body on the abuse issue.


The Silentlambs March produced 125 Jehovah’s Witnesses who were eye witnesses of the crimes against children committed by the governing body.  When they arrived they were locked out and ignored.  These actions provided proof beyond all doubt these men were not only cowards but refused to follow the very policies they used to hurt children and protect pedophiles. Each witness carried stuffed lambs for victims/witnesses that could not be there.  When we were refused the ability to leave them on the front step they were left in the fence at a park in front of the main entrance. Two hours later bethelites were observed stuffing them into trash sacks.
Perhaps an even better metaphor for how victims of abuse are treated within the organization.  The question that begs to be answered is will all the preaching in the world compensate for willfully injuring children? Perhaps only God will answer that question.

From the inception the Catholic Church reacted and responded in varying degrees to media and lawsuits, the pope even making a public apology for the cover up of abuse within their religion. Yet leadership of JW’s continue the course of denial of the numerous facts presented against their policy on abuse. They also have often condemned the Catholic Church for their abuse problems.


They have even made statements to media that their “policy” is superior to most religions.


It seems strange to read articles about how humble leadership is when their actions above seem so far removed from humility. 

Then there was the lawsuits filed against the organization.  There is so much to be said about this that shows in what an unchristian way survivors are treated. One example is when Watchtower lawyers are overheard joking about the tactics they use to force abuse victims to obtain very small settlements even when they are authorized to pay much more. 

While over fifty lawsuits were filed, the Watchtower attorneys used copious amounts of World Wide Work donations to fund local law firms in an effort to not pay victims any compensation by filing frivolous motions to run up the costs in order to make it very expensive for any victim seeking justice. 

I have personally observed Watchtower attorneys and locally hired lawyers defending the religious rights of a convicted pedophile to prevent further convictions in order to protect church records.  This has happened many times and yet who pays for this?  Donations.  I wonder how many actually
know that when they give money that it in some cases will protect a pedophile from being convicted.

In May of 2007 Silentlambs conducted a press conference to announce that 17 victims were paid settlements based on the wrongful actions of the Jehovah’s Witnesses abuse policy.

While the organization made the victims sign gag orders to cover the facts they hypocritically made a public statement that implied they never lost in court on an abuse case.  The statement said,  "In the United States, over 80,000 elders currently serve in over 12,300 congregations During the last 100 years, only eleven elders have been sued for child abuse in thirteen lawsuits filed in the United States; In seven of these lawsuits against the elders, accusations against the Watchtower
Society itself were dismissed by the courts."

When brothers and sisters as well as they public read this they might think this proves there is no problem with abuse in the organization. Yet consider the case of Erica Garza against the elder that molested her that appeared on Dateline.  When the judge dismissed her case due to the statue of limitations in which she missed the deadline by one month. 

The judge stated the actions of the organization were egregious and horrendous yet due to the statues his hands were tied to do anything.  That perhaps was one of the seven cases that was dismissed. Yet in many, many more cases the organization purposely sees that they never see a court room by paying settlements to victims. 

It has been noted that at times in recent years Watchtower Lawyers give special talks on Saturday night in local congregations and basically brag about their legal prowess as being invincible.  Yet this appears to be just another lie to members to cover the fact that they are paying out millions of dollars in World wide Work money in legal fees to lawyers to fight the cases and then when they are
completely busted, millions of dollars in settlements to victims in order to prevent the public or Jehovah’s Witnesses to know how the child abuse policy continues to hurt children. 

If you know of someone that has been abused, especially in the last ten years, please contact Silentlambs as there is a very real chance that you could be compensated for their bad policy that put you in danger.  Many precedents have been established in the courts over the last ten years that can make this a much easier process to get you the help you need.

The most common expression that I have heard over the last ten years is “I thought I was the only one.”


Then for so many after reading the website they realize they are not alone.  One victim spoke of her abuse the first time after 68 years and just two nights ago another spoke out for the first time at age 34.  I have stated many times that speaking out on abuse is always a positive step on the path to healing.

In ever single media interview I was offered it was always explained the purpose was to allow abuse survivors to tell their story and if this was not going to be done then I was not interested in doing the interview.  So many stepped up and told their story and as a result helped many thousands to know they were not alone.  That is the work of Silentlambs that remains true to the mission of Silentlambs since its inception by allowing the lambs to roar. If you would like to see some of the major events you might like to look at the time line for the first two years of Silentlambs


The question remains should Silentlambs continue?  It seems that each month new victims find the website for the first time.  Media and reporters use the website as a resource to quote and find information. Lawyers are able to use the legal documentation provided to understand better ways to litigate for victims. Jehovah’s Witnesses are able to review the information and make better decisions on what to do about abuse issues.

The public are also able to understand how bad policy can hurt children and how better policy can be enacted.  To date Silentlambs has bee contacted by over 7,000 abuse survivors, we have helped to report over 300 JW molesters, provided extensive assistance for numerous media reports on the abuse issue, and provided thousands of private counseling and support sessions for abuse victims as well as spoken out at several conventions on protecting children.

For those reasons it would appear that Silentlambs needs to continue as a voice for this issue.  The only way this can happen is with your support.  Due to the economic downturn donations to Silentlambs has been very low.  This next month we are facing some major expenses with website fees.  If those costs cannot be met then Silentlambs will no longer be on the internet.  Each time it seems when we reach this point someone finds a way to help things to continue.  If your heart moves you to assist please check out the donation page on the home page of the website.

Several options are offered on how you might be able to help financially.  Even if it is $5 every little bit helps.  If you would like to assist with the work of Silentlambs on a day to day basis please contact us, as there might be some areas you could help as well.

In 2001 three simple requests were made to make good policy for children in the organization.

1. A video taped apology to all victims to be played at all congregations of Jehovah’s Witnesses.

2. A written statement in the form of a letter to be read to all congregations. If you are molested go to the authorities first.

3. Anyone who has ever molested a child should be forbidden to go out in field ministry for life.

While it would certainly appear humble men could do far more, the organization has yet to act on even one of these requests.  So ten years later we write to ask for your help to keep it going.  If you see this work as having merit please assist Silentlambs to continue.  Thank the many that have been part of this work either financially or by their efforts for without them we would not be here today.

The courage of so many might be encapsulated in these words, thank you for being part of Silentlambs,

It's not enough to have a dream unless I'm willing to pursue it...

It's not enough to know what's right unless I'm strong enough to do it...

It's not enough to join a crowd, to be acknowledged and accepted...

I must be true to my ideals, even if I'm left out and rejected...

It's not enough to learn the truth unless I also learn to live it...

It's no enough to reach for love unless I care enough to give it...



As stated many times elsewhere, even though there are very kind Jehovah's Witnesses including family, friends and business associates, there is also much concern that the small band at the top of the Watchtower Society over JWs have permitted the entry and flourishing of negative policies and persons, doing so more and more as the years have passed.  Increasingly persons have exited Watchtower, saying it has become more of a dangerous cult, a religious organization with a deadly Dark Side to it. 

Make your own determinations.  If nothing else you may agree after reading everything else that there has been a lot over the years and continuing of what appears wierd, a lot that has happened which smacks of the strange if not bizarre.


Although there has been debate over if Watchtower's first President, Charles Taze Russell, was a known (non-secret) member of the Masons, there is no doubt that he knew Mason jargon and if not a secret or open Mason was what can be called a wannabee Mason.  It has also been noted that his own father as well as the father of his wife were both Masons.

Watchtower Society, the Masons and some occult groups use common jargon such as the name "Jehovah," also words and expressions such as "New Light" or "light bearer," "Watchtower," and "New World."    Into the 1930s the Watchtower organization also used as common jargon or key words "dawn" and "golden age." 

For example when Russell lived the Bible students group that he and wife Maria spearheaded was the Millennial Dawn Bible Students Association, while the legal organization used by the Dawnists was the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society.  Their hymn book was Poems And Hymns Of The Millennial Dawn.  A precursor to the later Awake! magazine was called The Golden Age
(1919 to 1937).

Some common symbols in Watchtower's early publications are also shared by Free Masonry.  Some were the crown with cross and wreath, the winged sun disk, the emblems of the Knights Templars.  In the early days, too, some of the common places for larger meetings or assemblies were places owned by the Masons. 

Russell is buried at Rosemont United Cemetery in the North Hills Area of Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania directly across the road from the largest Masonic building complex in the United States.  His grave site tombstone is small but near it he had a huge pyramid erected to his memory, and pyramids are another symbol also common to the Masons.  Click to see:

You can obtain your own photos anytime in Pittsburgh.  While on Interstate 179 or McKnight Road you take Exit 12 off onto Babcock Boulevard, go west, then turn left onto Cemetery Lane.  The huge pyramid becomes visible before the top of the hill on your right side, about 35 feet into the cemetery.   The address is United Cemeteries; 226 Cemetery Lane; Pittsburgh, PA 15237-2722; Telephone (412) 931-1017.  

The Watchtower organization split into Jehovah's Witnesses and the Dawn Bible Students Association after Russell died because, despite Russell's will, Joseph Rutherford seized control of most of its assets.    Watchtower grew huge, while Dawn stayed small, doing relatively little advertising of itself.  Some cult experts say that although Dawn appears more Christian, permitting celebration of Christmas and not disallowing transfusions, both are cults. 

It is said (nothing to confirm or disconfirm it) that each Halloween, which is the day Russell died (or some have even speculated was murdered by poisoning), in the early hours of the morning modern Dawnists gather, link hands and perform a circle dance around the pyramid.

It has been widely believed by most people who converted to be JWs that although Watchtower started out with the Russells and in the early days had some wierd, esoteric or occult ideas, it had dropped all those during the lifetime of its third President who was Nathan Homer Knorr. 

However, given the stunningly detailed allegations of Ravyn Giuliana in November 2008 (see more about this elsewhere here), some now believe that although reforming on the surface to grow more during Knorr's reign, Knorr and those top heads coming after him continued their duo nature, a blend of Christianity with secret occult practices and beliefs within the Luciferian fold.   Pat Garza, Mary Woodard and others have also spoken out against Watchtower heads sheltering and permitting the accumulation of pedophile Watchtower-appointed Elders as confirmed by legal case actions and sentencings to prison.

In sermons Russell often used Masonic references as when using “The Grand Master”  or "Great Architect" for God, the “SECRET ORDER” for himself and his followers, "New Light," “Degrees of Knowledge,” etc.

The second President of the Watchtower organization was Joseph F. Rutherford of Missouri.  He stopped using symbols and expressions that Russell had used; and he stopped teaching some things Russell had taught.  

Whereas Russell at least on the surface seemed pleasant, Rutherford was brusque and a drunkard.  However, it is noteable that he still spoke of angels directing the Watchtower magazine and organization.   For example he taught that although God had used the Holy Spirit to enlighten early Christians, starting in 1918, angels were used for doing so:

the Lord Jesus Christ, the Head of "the servant", acting by and through his holy angels, has directed and is directing that work. It was the holy spirit that operated upon the minds of men in the early church to take certain action; but now the Lord Jesus himself has returned, is in his temple, and, acting by and through his holy angels, puts into the mind and heart of the remnant class to take positive action and to do a certain work...
 After the holy spirit as an advocate or paraclete ceased to function in behalf of the consecrated, then the angels are employed in behalf of those who are being made ready for the kingdom.... Since 1918 the angels of the Lord have had to do with showing the Ezekiel class the truth.....  (The Watchtower, September 1, 1930, p. 263 ¶ 27; 1931 Yearbook of the International Bible Students Association, Daily Texts and Comments, February 17; Preservation, p. 51; The Watchtower, June 1, 1931, p. 167, ¶35.; Vindication III, 1932, p. 316. See further, Light, book II, 1930, p. 20; Preservation, 1932, p. 152.)

Rutherford also said before Armaggedon God would send angels to inform the remnant so that they would have time to notify humanity:

No man can properly interpret prophecy, and the Lord sends his angels to transmit correct information to his people,.... The Greater Gideon [Jesus] does not begin the Armageddon battle until the message of truth from Jehovah God concerning the same is transmitted by his angels to the faithful remnant on the earth.
(The Watchtower, February 15, 1935, p. 52, ¶7, 8; 1935 Yearbook of Jehovah's Witnesses, Daily Texts and Comments, November 13. See further, The Watchtower, July 1, 1938, pp. 199, 200, ¶24, 25; 1939 Yearbook of Jehovah's Witnesses, Daily Texts and Comments, June 22; J.F. Rutherford, His Vengeance, 1934, p. 6.)

"Is The Watchtower a means or channel employed by God to transmit information to his people?... he could and would transmit information to his people... No man can properly interpret prophecy, and the Lord sends his angels to transmit correct information to his people,..."  (The Watchtower, February 15, 1936 p. 52.)

Ravyn Giuliani has spoken of Watchtower elites using "automatic writing."  She alleges even after Rutherford, Watchtower heads such as Knorr, Franz and Henschel used herself as a spirit channeling infant before she finally became Christian as an adult.  As such she wrote messages they believed genuinely  transmitted from a spirit being through her hand onto paper.

Interestingly, Watchtower President Charles Taze Russell said "A truth presented by Satan himself is just as true as a truth stated by God... Accept truth wherever you find it, no matter what it contradicts." (Zion's Watchtower.  July 1879, pp 8, 9)  

Rutherford and other Watchtower Presidents carried on with using all kinds of information, even when taken out of context or misquoted in order to try to get Jehovah's Witnesses and readers among the public to believe what they wanted them to believe as "the Truth."  (Contrast John 8:42-48)

Watchtower thoroughly condemns speaking to spirit but used the spiritist Johannes Greber for helping support their New World Bible translation. They knew of his ties to Spiritism back in 1955 but kept using his wrong translation notions until 1987, only stopping their reference to him after exposed for it. 

However they continued to reference John S. Thompson as an authority
in their Kingdom Interlinear Translation of 1985 p. 1139-1140.  Thompson's book The Monotessaron, or The Gospel History, According to the Four Evangelists (1829) shows that he too drew inspiration and direction from the spirit world. (

Former Governing Body member Raymond V. Franz has noted in his Crisis Of Conscience that although hoping to stay anonymous the translators for Watchtower's version of the Bible were Frederick Franz, Nathan Knorr, Milton Henschel, Albert Schroeder, George Gangas.  Frederick Franz did most of the work while the others did token or nominal work with it. 

He himself had had some classes in Biblical or Koine Greek but learned what he could of Hebrew on his own.  He deviated greatly from standard, careful renderings of previous translators, for example, using Jehovah instead of Lord in numerous instances in the New Testament or Greek part of the Bible.  Numerous early manuscripts of the Greek or New Testament survive and they all use Lord, never Jehovah.

Rutherford at first said that after Russell died he continued to direct the Watchtower organization:
"This verse (Revelation 8:3) shows that, though Pastor Russell has passed beyond the veil, he is still managing every feature of the harvest work...We hold that he supervises, by the Lord's arrangement, the work yet to be done.  (The Finished Mystery 1917 pp. 144, 256) [http://www.jwfiles.com/occult.htm]

"Hence our dear Pastor, now in glory, is without doubt, manifesting a keen interest in the harvest work, and is permitted by the Lord to exercise some strong influence thereupon.  (Watch Tower 1917, November 1 p. 6161)

Then he sought to cover up his beliefs, writing that "No one of the temple company would be so foolish as to conclude that some brother (or brethren) at one time amongst them, and who has died and gone to heaven, is now instructing the saints on earth and directing them as to their work.  (Jehovah 1934 p. 191)

But in 1989 Watchtower flip-flopped, writing:

"It is fitting, then, that one of the 24 elders, representing anointed ones already in heaven, should stir John's thinking...(Revelation 7:13, 14a) Yes, that elder could locate the answer and give it to John.  This suggests that resurrected ones of the 24-elders group may be involved in the communicating of divine truths today."  (Revelation - Its Grand climax At Hand! 1989 p. 125)

(Do any of you have a usable photo of Pat Garza for posting here?  Email me: jmasonemerson@yahoo.com

At the Silentlambs.org protest rally in 2002 before the Bethel complex of buildings which houses the Governing Body of Jehovah's Witnesses, Pat Garza spoke:

“I'm Pat Garza, and I'm here to say that I was raped by Theodore Jaracz when I was a little girl, in the city of Los Angeles, he was the District Servant. There are two boys; their initials are "M.D." and "M.W.", if they - if I could find them theyre older than me, they were there, there were witnesses! We were terrified and silenced! We were not allowed to talk. My life was threatened and my brothers, were threatened, they were going to be killed if I spoke....”

Pat Garza later died of cancer.  She, like others before and since, described ritual abuse from pedophiles within Watchtower as satanic.  
Pedophile rings cut across the usual religious divides, pedophile clergy in one group helping those in others, they or their blind followers seeking to harass victims and outspoken adults, definitely "satanic" and definitely criminal.

To hear her actual voice:

Go to
http://silentlambs.org/education/multimedia.cfm , scroll down to Survivors Speak Out (B) (1.3M audio) (Ted Jaracz accused of molestation) , click on it and after hearing from a few others Pat Garza comes on.



In a 1913 Convention Report of the International Bible Students, Watchtower’s early spearhead Charles Taze Russell wrote: “"I am very glad to have this particular opportunity to saying a word about some of the things in which we agree with our Masonic friends, because we are speaking in a building dedicated to Masonry, and we also are Masons. I am a Free Mason. I am a free and accepted Mason."  Some have said he was only saying he was a Mason in a symbolic rather than literal sense.  Regardless of if a Mason per se or only a wannabee Mason, this is of grave concern for the following reasons.

Local Masonic Lodges are branches of Free Masonry. Other branches include the Grottoes, Shriners, Eastern Star, Scottish Rite to name a few.  Besides there also being some religious groups with secretive Masonic affiliations,  members of small orders also operate, can enter and once so positioned manipulate various religious organizations, especially those structured as hierarchies.  To become a Mason, people take oath to a generic Supreme Being or abstract concept acceptable also to non-Christians such as Atheists and Hindus, do rituals etc that in actuality deny Jesus Christ.  

Positive deeds such as done by Shriners to help children are also performed in order to mask the darker doings.  It is sometimes called a secret, but more correctly is a secretive or esoteric Society, a society with secrets.  Some members are permitted to know more of the darker matters and do more than others.  The majority, not advanced into the higher circles or order, think their organization is wholly or at least mostly benevolent.   Masons have also practiced surveillance and blackballing of any applicants whom local officers do not care for, e.g.  homosexuals.  There are secret hand grips, gestures and words or phrases.

Upon the altar in the middle of a Lodge is a Bible that members are not allowed to read or open past the book of Malachi, that is, it snubs the entire Christ-focused New Testament.  Masons claim to know and have the divine name of God, which they falsely assert is Jah-Bul-On, their corruption of names for Jah/Jehovah, the Canaanites god Baal and Egypt’s sun-god Onisirus.  This perverted name is claimed to be God’s true name so holy it must be spoken only when there are three Royal Arch Masons gathered with  intertwined hands.

Albert Pike, the father of modern Masonry said, "Lucifer is God!" and considered Lucifer to be the Bearer of Light, not a person, but a Force, created for good but who may also serve for doing evil. Masonry depicts Satan via the mythological, horned god Pan from whom also came the he-goat of the witches festival called Sabbat.   It is a ritual of the York Rite, Chapter officers to call themselves not by the pronoun “I” but by the holy name expression "I AM THAT I AM,” a  blaspheming of God.

It is professed that Masonry’s intention is to take an already “good” man and make him better; however it takes in as many “good” men as possible to possibly make some better as part of a mask of organizational goodness while turning some who were good increasingly into users of darkness.  In short it is a deception and its founder Charles T. Russell founded an organization with darkness at the top which over the years has only grown in darkness reaching farther and more directly down to harm innocents at the bottom.  This explain why it has included many “good” men such as George Washington, other great U.S. President and Winston Churchhill, but also leaders and founders of Christian and Satanic cults such as Joseph Smith, Brigham Young, Louis Farakhan, Aliester Crowley, Helena Petrovna Blavatsky, Gerald B. Gardner, and Dr. Wynn Westcott. 

Contrary to Masons, Jesus Christ said he had not come to call those without sin but to call sinners which in fact we all are.  Even when he himself was rightly called "good" he modestly said to apply that adjective to his Father in heaven.   Thus, the movement of  Masonry and its associates with their so-called Truths are false, while Christ alone is, as he says at John 14:6, "The Truth. "

(Some information in the foregoing was also noted in a letter of disassociation depicted at
http://www.ovrlnd.com/Cults/JW_Disfellowship.html  Why not mail copies to active Jehovah’s Witnesses.)


As shown elsewhere on this page Ravyn Giuliani has alleged that some Watchtower Society elites are still covertly practising the occult.  If so, then what form or branch of it? 

Ravyn's descriptions appear to indicate some branch of Luciferianism in which Elites or Special Persons are regular JWs by day but at night freely do occult practices, a balancing of the luminary or orb of the sun by day and the luminary or orb of the moon by night, the left hand not knowing what the right hand is doing.

If Charles Taze Russell's terminology is viewed as not just illustrative, then it is either in part or as a shortened form called The Secret Order.  It has many commonalities with Free Masonry at least insofar as word terminology and symbolism are concerned.

The online encyclopedia wikipedia.org says of Luciferianism that it "is a recently developed offshoot of Satanism that keeps most of the tenets of Satanism, yet it has more leniency to what is commonly referred to as a "good" morality.  Their view of Satan may incorporate some concepts from contemporary western religion, such as the sense of him by some of them as a father."

Luciferians see Lucifer as representing positive characteristics such as knowledge, independence and pride.  They see Lucifer as a Lightbearer, a bringer of New Light (Proverbs 4:17-18) and Truth.  He is seen as a being of fire (light) and air (wisdom), therefore characterized by sunlight, wind, and fire. 

Since knowledge or wisdom have a duo nature, able to be "good” and or “evil,” Lucifer is also represented by the traditional “darkness” of Satanism.  They see these qualities admirable, what is needed to get things done in life.

Luciferianism began in thirteenth-century Germany, teaching that Lucifer should be worshiped as the ruler of the physical world in line with the Bible calling Lucifer (Satan) 'the god of this world' in 2 Corinthians 4:4 and 'lord of this world' (John 12:31).

Any Watchtower elites such as the many alleged by Giuliani may or may not have some links, at least philosophical, with the Church of Lucifer which began only about 1988.   This does not rule out though that they may hold some common beliefs with it such as seeing Lucifer as symbolic of the eternal quest for wisdom a force of and behind particular aspects of nature.

More likely their beliefs do go back to Germany and central Europe (Poland etc), and the Watchtower organization had had many connections with Germany, sometimes trying out innovations there (and other European lands) before going mainstream with them in the United States.  

Being Special or Elite means their views on the Bible can sometimes have an "extra" dimension or layer of "deeper understanding" as compared to what they teach as a surface understanding to regular JWs and the public.  For example their New World translation of the Bible says:

"Furthermore, if you are being led by spirit, you are not under law." (Galatians 5:18)

Most normal JWs and persons in various churches would view that verse as saying that Christians are not under Mosaic Law.   However, those who hold that they are Special Persons, may interpret it more literally to mean that they are not under regular human laws, something normal people (including most reading this) would view as too crazy to believe.

Further, the special persons of the Secret Order can teach and publish that they believe they are subject to human governmental authorities as a protection for themselves (and regular JWs would and do try to comply with this), but for themselves and their doings in reality feel free to not go by the law of human governmental authorities whenever they feel those get in their way.

The goal of not only the Secret Order of the Watchtower but many other such esoteric and occult groups is a New Age, a New Order, a New World of righteousness, a return to Eden, a paradise Earth, a restoration of Golden Age.   Thus they teach standard Christianity by day but believe it is practical to have a policing power by night so as to discipline in righteousness those they feel are practicing "secret sins" such as of a sexual nature.

Such members of the occult could thus practise ritual sexual abuses such as the molestation of children, yet send their human servants or "angels" of Jehovah out to punish those of the Flock doing things such as practicing husband-wife sexual intimacies.  By increasing their efforts to cleanse and seraph or toss people out of the holy organization they believe it is pleasing to Jehovah and He may then act to bring on Armageddon or the end of civilization as it is now known.

Their belief system would include that at Armageddon (a literal place or a time of great significance in history), Jehovah's enemies would be confused and turn on not only "false religion" but then also on one another.  Then would be ushered in the New World, God's Kingdom fully come upon Earth, in which righteousness is to truly dwell, a paradise where people live forever. 

That, speculatively, then, would appear to be the goal..... if the allegations should at some point prove to be fully established, the reader being reminded again that these are allegations and speculations. 

While not perhaps quite as "dangerous" as with full-scale Satanists, those who blend Christianity and Luciferianism are also potentially every bit as dangerous.  If children are raped, if adults are harassed, if children and adults bleed to death, then any and all who lead the way in such happenings are definitely dangerous as well as potentially those whom they command.

Would they ever kill?  By logic, although peaceable by day, those who rape and otherwise harm others, are indeed potential murderers, -- again, if and only if, the allegations prove true. 

Be reminded, though, that there are many decent JWs and possibly up to 98 percent or so are well-meaning, kindly people.   The 1 to 2 percent who call themselves Special People with special knowledge are, if the allegations are true, not only ruinous to all JWs and a menace to the public, but definitely dangerous to all JWs and the public.

Watchtower regularly condemns astrology as is common and acceptable among the churches of Christianity, for example as seen in the Awake! magazine issue of July 8, 1994; pp. 3-7.   However, Watchtower's elites or special persons have not held that belief as seen for example by the use of astrology and  planetary positions made to back Watchtower predictions for 1914. (The Watchtower.  May 1903; p. 3184 WTS reprints) 


Clayton Woodworth was a prominent in the Watchtower organization as co-author of The Finished Mystery. (1917) At a Bible convention in 1914 he admitted that he had recently become mentally unbalanced and demon possessed.   The Finished Mystery appears to allude to his being demon possessed and notes others in the Bible Students movement (now Jehovah's Witnesses, Dawn Bible Students etc) would also be so afflicted as the "time of the end" progressed."

The Golden Age magazine spoke of others in the movement struggling with demons transmitting thoughts into their minds. By the 1930's Rutherford himself claimed that angels were transmitting information and Biblical interpretations for Watchtower publications into his mind.  (He also said that truth is truth even when it comes from demons.) 

Experts believe the anti-emergency blood transfusions doctrine that officially began in 1945 can be traced to him, and for example the following appears in a Golden Age issue of 1931:

"We do well to bear in mind that among the drugs, serums, vaccines, surgical operations, etc., of the medical profession, there is nothing of value save an occasional surgical procedure. . . . Readers of The Golden Age know the unpleasant truth about the clergy; they should also know the truth about the medical profession, which sprang from the same demon worshipping shamans (doctor priests) as did the ‘doctors of divinity.’" (Golden Age, Aug. 5, 1931 pp. 727-728)

Contrary to Woodworth and modern Watchtower heads, the Bible itself via 1 Samuel 14:32-35 shows God forgave Saul's entire army of men who once ate meat with blood in order to stay alive even back with Mosaic Law normally decreed death. 

When JW children and adults die today, and when Watchtower followers seek to promote anti-emergency blood usage among the public, these deaths and dangerous misteachings thus go back to Woodworth who was into the demonic and bizarre as also were Rutherford and before him Charles T. Russell.



From 1895 until 1953 the Watchtower Society taught that Jehovah lived in or on the star Alcyone in the solar system of Pleiades. (Studies in the Scriptures, Volume 3, pp. 327-328; also Reconciliation, p. 14; The Golden Age, p. 540. 

Only in the November 15, 1953 issue of the Watchtower magazine did Watchtower say it had "new light" and no longer officially teaches the belief.  It is possible the "Elites" with "special (occult) knowledge" alledged to still be in control of Watchtower do continue to hold the belief among themselves.  It is known fact that some past Watchtower Presidents and other high up officials have held such beliefs as will be demonstrated many times elsewhere on this page.

The key word is "officially."  Watchtowerite elites, that is "special persons," find no problem mouthing one belief "officially" to the majority of members while holding and quietly teaching "unofficially" other beliefs.

However, even if there is such a covert clique of "Special" knowledge leaders over Watchtower, it is also highly likely that, for example, as regards the Governing Body, there are and have been members who were not part of and would be rightly repulsed by such, not knowing of and even expressing total disbelief that their colleagues are like that, the principle of the right hand not knowing what the left one is doing.

For example, Raymond Franz has written he was shocked to discover when on the Governing Body that Watchtower was keeping the "sin" or "Judicial Committee" files on members, not only for during the lifetimes of the people but continuing thereafter.  Here he was at the very top of the Watchtower organization, and yet he had never been let in on the secret.  The right hand did not know what the left hand was doing.

(Formerly in the Watchtower and pagan she is today in the Roman Catholic Church)

Readers are cautioned that the following still falls within the definition of allegations since not yet aired or proved in any law court.  It has already been told to the U.S. FBI and a growing number of women have made similar allegations.  That pedophilia is practised within Watchtower, there is absolutely no doubt, given the convictions of pedophiles in courts in the U.S., Canada etc.

Ravyn, as well as previous women whistleblowers such as Mary Woodard and Pat Garza appears very credible provided you believe in the existence of God and creatures of energy or spirit commonly called demons and angels.  The following link also details how Watchtower heads in the past, Rutherford's era in particular, have promoted wierd ideas as well as been into occult practices including "automatic writing:"


Ravyn Giuliana was born in1962 and today lives in central Virginia.  She is now a Roman Catholic though in the past a Watchtower and paganism follower.  On her father’s side there were third generation connections with the Watchtower Society.  While her father was in California he left it to join the airforce.  Her mother was “not a strong JW” but passive.  Her Father became what was then called a Company Servant and later an Elder.

While she was still a baby a demon with a cowboy-like appearance appeared in their doorway then went into her bedroom to remain over her crib.  At age three she was dressed in blue and led into woods in New Jersey, seated in a chair down in a 6-8 foot deep pit, given a pen to write to fill a notebook via “automatic writing.”

She had no repressed memories.  She herself saw no sexual misdoings or sacrifices performed in regard to herself but does not doubt that other children were and continue to be so abused.  She had a demon of her own and could call the demon and do automatic writing for the demon even with both her hands.  This meant she was a channeler.

Watchtower officials would meet and have her with them.  She channeled at least onca a week in woods behind her house or with elders after they met at their local kingdom hall, but she also was taken to Brooklyn to perform once a month. 

In the past she has spoken to others on internet forums and they have also come forth about such doings they also know went on at Bethel world headquarters of Watchtower in Brooklyn. She mentioned larger tunnels are used for Bethelites' transportation but in them are doors and smaller tunnels, some only 4 to 5 feet wide, with tiled floors and ceilings.  She gave details on the sizes of the tiles.  There was lighting with bulbs, doors with bars. 

She was taken inside, taken to a closet off of a smaller room, dressed in green-blue robes.  Five to twelve men came in, an altar was set up front before which were chairs.  Candles were lit as well as incense.  She was seated in a chair with her back to the audience of the 8-12 men who also wore robes, blue.  One had a censor that gave forth smoke with a plastic-like odor. 

As she sat there she went into trance and the demon man put a hand upon her shoulder from behind her.  She was given a feather pen.  At various times the pen would be dark, black, burgundy or purple.  She wrote with one hand until it tired and then switched to using the other hand.  She wrote, for example, material that was about Daniel 11 and 12. 

Governing Body members, most of whom have since died, were involved, especially Lyman Swingle, who often smelled of ink.  She would write material then give it to him.  Frederick Franz was there, appearing to her rather creepy, odd, scary.  To her child's mind Nathan Knorr reminded her of then U.S. President Lyndon Johnson.  Knorr was mean.  Also, to her as a child, Milton Henschel resembled U.S. President Eisenhower.

Daniel Sydlik and sometimes his wife sister Sydlyk were there.  She wore a red dress with a purple robe and long beads.  Also there were Grant Suiter, Klein and a person still alive and on the Governing Body, Ted Jaracz.  Also participating at time were lesser known persons of the Watchtower such as Bill Hannon, Asa Parker andTom Peters as well as Leo Volpe who started his own religion in the Vineland, New Jersey area, since deceased but with surviving followers.  Volpe thought he was the resurrected Jeremiah.

There were rituals at the Cemetery at the Watchtower Farm after the annual Memorials of the Last Supper.  Ravyn partook of the emblems of wine and bread with them.

She left Jehovah's Witnesses in 1997.  The Daniel book talks of contact with angels.  An early Watchtower book was on Angels and Women, and her father used to read from it as a storybook for her.  It tells of a fallen angel who wanted to get back into God's organization.

Former Watchtower President Joseph Rutherford as well as Woodworth, the editor of the Golden Age (later named Awake!), were involved in such spiritism.  Ravyn's demon was protective of her much like a guardian angel.  It was a case of Demon Obsession rather than Demon Possession.  This is where a demon is obsessed with a human.  She is now a Catholic, comfortable with Catholicism knowing that it and its priests do not doubt that there are spirit creatures as do some of the Protestant preachers.

Her father used to spend 2-3 weeks in Biloxi, Mississippi, so she believes it may be a center for spiritistic practices.  Also mentioned were Miami, San Diego, the southern California desert area, southern New Jersey, Pittsburgh, Atlanta, and possibly Wisconsin.

She is now free of the the occult.  At first she left JWs and went into the occult a while before becoming Catholic.  As a JW she was a "pioneer" for fifteen years, by which is meant a full-time door-to-door preacher.  While a JW at the end she saw two suicides and a murder.  She found discrepencies in old Watchtower publications, did some research on the internet and the internet got her out of the Watchtower Society altogether.

She underscored that Ted Jaracz was definitely involved.  She has been threatened and, of course, shunned by relatives.  For example she got a blood-stained Watchtower magazine in the mail.  Before coming on the telephone conference and giving her account she spoke with a Catholic priest who told her that if thirty years ago someone had had the courage to go public about child abuse then going on in the Catholic Church, it could have kept the Catholic Church out of its problems with pedophiles.

Rutherford has been quoted as saying that truth is truth even if it comes from the demons.  SRA has been with Watchtower from the beginning.

Rick Fearon mentioned that the October 22, 1989 Awake! magazine had a picture of a young man with a hood and dagger.  Its front cover was "Satanisim - A Deadly Growing Menace." On page 3 a box says it's "Hard To Believe But True."  It speaks of Pennsylvania having child abuse, the sacrificing of animals etc, and there are some 10-12 pages on Satanism.

Ravyn noted (and Rick concurred) that Watchtower does "Hiding In Plain Sight," a diversion by tattling on other to take attention away from what they themselves do.  It's where you do not let your right and left hands know what the other hand is doing.  Ravyn said that it is a kind of duo worship, of day versus night, God in the day versus Satan of the night.

Ravyn, when a child being used as for automatic writing or channeling lived in the countryside in New Jersey south of Vineland and Millville (or was it Mill Woods?).  Sydlyk came often, sometimes stayed with the Hanons.  There was no altar in the woods but a 6-8 foot deep it.  Area kids would sometime come upon and called the pits "snake pits" because there were dead snakes in them.

She father got her used to dead things like snakes, cats, and dogs.  She handed over her notebooks usually to the Swingle and was later told they went on to Frederick Franz' office.

She mentioned that her father and other elders would some hold their own extra meetings after the regular meetings and they would use her to consult with her demon.  Once a demon directed the elders who were deliberating on if to disfellowship a JW man who had accused of smoking to go out into the parking lot of the kingdom hall.  Two did and caught the man there smoking a cigarette; then he was disfellowshipped.

In recent years Watchtower's pedophilia and its secret ties with the United Nations have been exposed on the internet.  She is not sure but believes her father and the others were into some form of Luciferianism or Enochianism insofar as their occultic practices go.  Watchtower's first official President was Charles Russell whose grave is next to a huge pyramid erected on the largest property for Masons in the United States.  In the occult Watchtowers are are symbols for the Grigori or Fallen Angels.

Her husband works with Homeland Security.  She spoke with the FBI and they said since there was no crime such as pedophilia involved with what she related their hands were tied but that they assured her that they have long been watching the Watchtower Society.

She noted that cults 1. isolate, 2. insulate, and 3. demonize non-members.  JW activitiy seems to be increasing in recent years.   Chapters 11 and 1 of the Watchtower's Daniel Book are based upon demon information that was channeled through her.  Her maiden name was Pangborn.  Her Grandmother was born in Millville, New Jersey.  On her father's side, Ravyn was the third generation of JWs. 

Besides Ted Jaracz she did not meet any of the current Governing Body members.  However, the name Pierce is familiar to her though possibly not in regard to the Pierce currently on Watchtower's Governing Body.  Her father called Satan the name "Lucifer."

NEXT PART talks about Barbara Anderson's questioning of Ravyn Giuliani.  Keep returning for it.

Barbara Anderson questioned Ravyn Giuliani at length.  As she did so she repeatedly said she was not trying to attack Ravyn but simply wanted the truth; that she is no sort of apologist for the Watchtower.  She and her husband Joe Anderson in listening had questions for example about the alleged side tunnels leading to rooms where Ravyn said she had channeled for many Watchtower officials.  In questioning it was brought out that rather than tunnels off of the main tunnel Ravyn was speaking of some rooms that are down underground.  I believe the conclusion was that they may be rooms for doing things like laundry or storage.

Barbara had at times been for example in the office of Frederick Franz and never spotted manuscripts that Ravyn had written.  Ravyn said those may have been transcribed, typed out more legibly. 

Barbara and Ravyn discussed that Ravyn’s father may have used powerful drugs on her at times.  Barbara said that Ravyn had quite a “gift” to be able to remember things so well going back to when she was only three years old. 

The main thing that Barbara asked about and which Barbara appeared to clearly deny the accuracy of Ravyn’s recollections was Ravyn’s recollection of the wife of Daniel Sydlik.  Ravyn said her hair was red and Barbara said, no, it was auburn. I used dictionary.com for the definition of auburn which is “1. a reddish-brown or golden brown color,” which means it may be viewed as red, a kind of golden brown or blonde.

Click this to see on google.com photos of auburn hair and see if it's mostly red or otherwise to yourselves: http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&q=auburn+hair&gbv=2

Barbara said the Marina Sydlik whom she personally knew while at Bethel was not the Marina Sydlik whom Ravyn described since Ravyn said she was talkative and friendly.  Barbara said that instead Marina was extremely quiet.  Barbara did not note and Ravyn, who was tired out from talking for several hours, did not note either that the same person can be very different when in company with others who are of like mind and beliefs.

Ravyn said Marina had an accent and that to her it sounded German.  Barbara said that was false, that Marina’s accent was definitely British.  In fact British English descends from Old English also known as Anglo-Saxon which was the language of the German tribes the Angles and Saxon who along with the Jutes invaded Britain from what is now Germany.  To many listeners some of the many dialects of British English have a close resemblance to German.   For example speakers of Cockney and many Germans use glottal stops or a clipped type of enunciation.

At one point Barbara remarked upon how odd it seemed that Ravyn's father read to her from the book about the fallen angel as a storybook, in other words that an adult was reading from a full-fledged book for adults to a tiny child.  I myself noted that when I had infant children I sometimes would get a book that wasn't a little children's book, open and read not verbatim from it but giving them the basics of the story.  I did not note but it is true that sometimes adults read, verbatim at that, to young ones from the Bible. 

Ravyn was asked, I believe by Barbara Anderson, how she could be a JW pioneer by day and then a channeler or spiritist by night.  Ravyn said from infancy her father taught her that they were "special people" who knew special knowledge the others, the typical or maybe 99% of JWs, were not privvy to.

All being as well as possible summarized and with only a few comments in the foregoing,  readers  are invited to draw their own conclusions on what all was said.  You are also urged to go to the sixscreensofthewatchtower.com website which in a few more days should be back online after the broadband matter is resolved.  Rick will have posted his tape of the telephone conference there, and personally I doubt this is the last presentation on this topic, and others may also speak and write on it.

Will those who are the bosses at Watchtower now step into the light to offer rebuttals?  In the past that hasn't happened, including not after what Woodard or Pat Garza had to say.  It would be interesting, though, if they did and even more so if it wound up that by discovery process, say, a whole lot of Watchtower materials including the database of over 23,000 records of pedophilia were to also see the light.

It's good to reflect upon the fact that although some of the Watchtower's elite were mentioned (alleged at this point anyway), others were not.   Further, although some might speculate there may be 1%, 2% or even 4%, say, among JWs that are knowingly bad eggs (including those not only into ritualistic harassing or raping as pedophiles and their protecters but into the occult), still that would mean that 99%, 98%, or 96% are still pretty decent although horribly misled.  

There have been and are many good people living as JWs despite any darker doings by embedded, sheltered pedophiles and the like in the organization, going from the Watchtower in New York at the top on down into the worldwide congregations.  May the FBI not only investigate but when there is sufficient evidence act upon it so as to save a lot of their lives that will otherwise be lost or ruined.

 In an email from Ravyn Giuliana she notes: “The memories I have of the smaller tunnels off the larger ones could very well be the hallways and anterooms that Barbara mentioned as regards the kitchens and laundries---I am open to that. But I DO remember the tiles and the colors. As far as her impression of certain people I knew, well it kinda goes to say that if one is a JW during the day and a Satanist at night there might be more than one aspect to their personalities doesn't it? And I consider red hair and auburn hair to be basically the same.

I woke up this morning with a whole different perspective. I can now see where my father was also a victim. No excuse for his not doing proper parenting (no excuse for my mom either) BUT he has struggled his whole life with similar issues and now I can see that he was way in over his head too. For the first time in my whole life I actually feel as if I can pray for his deliverance. I feel like maybe he has not had as many choices as I assumed he had. (whoa---is this forgiveness?)"

I woke up this morning with a whole different perspective. I can now see where my father was also a victim. No excuse for his not doing proper parenting (no excuse for my mom either) BUT he has struggled his whole life with similar issues and now I can see that he was way in over his head too. For the first time in my whole life I actually feel as if I can pray for his deliverance. I feel like maybe he has not had as many choices as I assumed he had. (whoa---is this forgiveness?)"


"Do Angels Give Light To The Watchtower Society?" is a two page article written by Lorri MacGregor.  She notes in it that the Watchtower Society's literature for Jehovah's Witnesses is full of references to "angels" directing Watchtower's work, and the Governing Body men over the Watchtower Society consider themselves in particular, rather than "anointed" JWs in general who are said to number only 144,000 to truly be the central or special, elite "remnant" group mentioned in the Bible.

She notes, for example, back in 1932 Watchtower published Vindication, volume III which on page 250 says "...the heavenly messengers or angels of the Lord now used by the Lord in behalf of the remnant.  These angels are invisible to human eyes and are there to carry out the orders of the Lord.  No doubt they first hear the instruction which the Lord issues to his remnant and then these invisible messengers pass such instruction on to the remnant."  In stark contrast, in the Bible faithful angels were seen and their messages clearly heard.

MacGregor also points out that former Governing Body member Raymond Franz says in Crisis Of Conscience that Watchtower's doctrines for JWs come not by prayer or Bible study but are supposed to somehow be by "angelic direction," which Watchtower has also often said.  
MacGregor says if the remnant, that is those Governing Body members most in the know, don't see the spoken of angels, then "one can only assume that they 'hear voices' or perhaps receive 'truths' by 'automatic handwriting' or some such procedure."

Departing a moment from MacGregor's article, it is worth commenting that, for example, former JW now Catholic Ravyn Giuliani has given detailed allegations naming deceased Watchtower Society presidents Knorr, Franz and Henschel as well as a Governing body member nicknamed "the Boss" as participants at automatic handwriting events.  Giuliani gave the details archived on sixscreeensofthewatchtower.com, and a written summary also appears on

Continuing now with MacGregor's article, she notes that Revelation 14:5 says the remnant of 144,000 are blameless and without any lie found in their mouth.  To the contrary, Watchtower's heads have often mispredicted dates for Armageddon, for example: 1975, 1941, 1918, 1915,1914, 1879, 1874.  On page 120 of volume 1 of the 1930 publication Light, the statement is written that "Again God put it in the mind of his people, by his angel, to act and to carry out his purposes."

MacGregor notes the Bible nowhere says angels put things into believers' minds, although Holy Spirit can motivate us in this way.  She also notes that Galatians 1:8, 9 warns that even if we or an angel preached a Good News contrary to what Christ and the apostles taught, then "let him be accursed."  Jeremiah 23:16 says to not listen to those prophesying futilely.  In ancient times such a false prophet was stoned.

In its early days the Watchtower organization's heads were definitely and openly into pyramidology, numerology, stargazing etc.  Today they no longer talk positively of such things or predict exact end-dates to the general membership or public, but they do still do some things quite openly such as have a Bible translation that falsely gives the name "Jehovah" where every existing early manuscript says "Lord," and when you look at their entire history of over a century from 1874 to today, it is full of falsehoods, futile predictions etc.

The Governing Body also teaches as "The Truth" that many now living will never die living in paradise earth even though the Bible says the real Good News is that because of Christ there will be a resurrection and at 1 Corinthians 15:22 Paul says we all sin so all will die and need resurrection.  Adam and Eve were told they would never die but could live forever in paradise, and the source of this attractive but false Good News wasn't God but a serpent or Satan. (Genesis 3)  

Some Governing Body members are more "knowing" than others.  It is as if there are circles within circles or rings within rings within the Watchtower Society, some being more "intimate companions" of knowledge working for or with Watchtower's versions of "angels."  MacGregor concludes, noting that membership in the Watchtower Society is falling in all but third-world lands where there is relatively little access to the internet. 

Due to misdirection, JWs, sometimes children too, are bleeding to death despite 1 Samuel 14:31-35 showing God forgave all Saul's men after they ate unbled meat to stay alive.  Misdirected at the yearly Memorial of the Last Supper, most do not partake of the bread and wine emblems, thus symbolically denying the Body of Christ.  Though Colossians 2:16 says not to judge others over holidays they are misled to do just that including over Christmas, though God's own real angels and shepherds celebrated Christ's birthday. (Lu 2)

Silentlambs.org has numerous TV and newspaper articles about JW Elders molesting children, the pedophiles' numbers increasing yearly since 1972 when Watchtower said JW Bodies Of Elders need not automatically delete as Elders those who confessed to molesting if several years had passed without it becoming widely known.

Those Jehovah's Witnesses who have not already done research on the internet really need to, and if they want a new arrangement for spiritual fellowshipping after leaving Watchtower, they are welcome to develop or attend Christian house-churches as noted at in "Christian Packet" near the top of christianwitnesses.com. 



NOTE.  Most JWs (or clergymen in other groups) including most Elders, were you able to get inside their heads, are well-meaning or certainly would like to think they are, but as shown time and again over thousands of years there are also those who have succumbed to doing what is wrong, and this is even more likely to be the case, for example, in those Jehovah's Witness kingdom halls with one or more pedophiles. 

Pedophiles are not only a danger to children but sometimes do additional unethical and or criminal activities against adults as varied as peeping tommery, wiretapping,  harassment, sometimes druggery, fanatical "policing" to ferret out those committing "secret sins" by which they often mean even normal husband-wife sexuality etc, in part hoping their doing so will make themselves appear more righteous and be more protected.  If it sounds crazy, remember, that's exactly what pedophiles are.  

Such pedophiles are especially dangerous when they move into positions of power as Elders, although, again, there are also many well-meaning Elders.    Those men from headquarters who move them into such positions may themselves be closet pedophiles or certainly have lost all their senses.

The following is not anti-JWs but rather anti-pedophiles and other criminals embedded among and harming JWs including children.  It is not limited to "Satanic Ritual Abuse" (SRA) but Ritual Abuse in general or what has sometimes been termed gang harassment, cause harassment, cult harassment,  terrorist stalking etc.
   By their unnatural and perverse nature, pedophiles, whether they don robes and hoods or not, especially so when they are part of a ring associated with a religion of whatever type(s), are Satanic, Ritual and Abusive.  

Some reading this will prefer to believe that an organization of over 1,000,000 members in the U.S. or 8,000,000 associating from worldwide has no SRA pedophile members, because, despite logic, it is "too much for their minds to bear," too staggering, too saddening even depressing to believe.   When they compute how many perps that would mean if the percentage for such is one in a thousand or one in a hundred, two in a hundred etc, is too much for some people who suddenly realize whom they may have been around at times past.  Nevertheless, trying to wish away inconvenient facts doesn't make the facts go away.

Another logical point is that when an organization is so huge, the statistical likelihood is that it also has not only active pedophiles sheltered within it but, if you look closer, it is also more likely to be sheltering those similar ilk, that is spouse abusers, thieves, murderers etc.  Besides common sense statistics, Christ also warned of weeds mixed in with the good plants.



Gustave Doré's depiction of Satan from John Milton's Paradise Lost.


SATAN & RITUAL ABUSE The following is about not just any one particular group such as the Watchtower Society over Jehovah's Witnesses, Roman Catholicism, etc, but is general although the names of some groups do also appear at times.  Nor is this any kind of attack on JWs, Catholics, etc although pedophilia and other crimes and abuses such as come from clergymen definitely are exposed.  Some of us have beloved family and friends in such groups and our desire is to help them by truthfully, lovingly exposing those who mislead and endanger them.

To begin, then, insofar as Satan is concerned, possibly a very good, solid modern equivalent of the word "spirit" is the word "energy."  The Bible says that God is spirit (John 4:24) or, as some translations say, "a Spirit."  Indeed the Bible says that God is not just a good feeling, but He is the great Spirit or Source of all energy that created our star-filled universe and planet Earth.  (Ge 1:1)  

The Bible also speaks of there being myriads and myriads, that is, numerous, created angels, that is spirits or energy beings.  The One who made ears can hear, and similarly God can think.  The Source of all creation is not dumb or stupid but far beyond humans in all abilities including intelligence. 

The spirit or energy beings made by God include some who work with God, others who oppose God.  In the Bible those for God are called the angels; and those against God are called the demons. 

It is common sense that in the case of any group, there tend to be leaders and a leader of leaders.  The head leader of the demons is called Satan or the devil.  Scriptures in Job, for example, show Satan is an actual being, not just a bad thought or the concept of evil.  Scriptures also say that Satan even sought to tempt Jesus Christ but failed. (Matthew 4)

Christ noted that the whole world lies in the power of the wicked one.  (1 John 5:19) So according to Christ, Christians need to know that there is an actual being capable of misleading entire nations, religious groups and business organizations around the planet. 

Satan doesn't have to exercise absolute control everywhere every second, for to keep the world in his power or control he is able to subtly, craftily manipulate matters from time to time.  For example, we observe that nations get along fine for decades, then suddenly there is war between two nations or even a world war involving many nations. 

Big business can and often does act to provide much prosperity.  However, at times, bankers and stock brokerages are manipulated by the love of money or greed so that it brings down the economy of one or even many nations around the world.

Religions also often promote peace, love, kindness, joy for people, but that's also not always the case.  For example in Christianity there are some unusually good religious groups, a whole lot of average groups, and some bad or even downright dangerous groups, usually called cults, that range from being tiny to being largely with millions of followers.

Satan generally controls cults from behind the scenes, making most of the regular members think bad things that go on are actually good and pleasing to God.  In fact Satan is "an angel of light," like "a roaring lion" or wolf in sheep's clothing. (1Peter 5:8, Matthew 7:15) 

You may wonder what the most secretive bad fruits are that cults do when under the direct control of Satan's human helpers, called Satanists, people who for a fact do also exist.  How do they get more converts and control over religious groups for Satan?

Satanists move to become the top level members of or even to found religious groups.  They attain positions in the groups and then appoint other Satanists like themselves to also be clergy members, variously called in different group by names such as preachers, ministers, priests, elders, servants, bishops, shepherds etc. 

Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) has been hard to get evidence about and something that many policemen, therapists etc have denied exists; while others have said that they have heard way too many people giving the same accounts that show that Satanists definitely do exist and they secretly practice Satanic Ritual Abuse or SRA.  For some more about the controversy, read about the "Pace Memorandum" on SRA and Mormonism.

Some who do not believe in SRA will agree that pedophiles have infiltrated top local and sometimes national levels of hierarchially structured religious groups, network or work as gangs praying upon the "sheep" under them.  After all, there are way too many court convictions of such criminals to deny the facts.  Settlement payouts have been to the tune of millions of dollars coming from Roman Catholicism, Jehovah's Witnesses, the non-Christian Hare Krishnas etc.

There is more likely to be agreement when the term "Satanic ritual abuse" is dropped and some substitute used such as "Systematic ritual abuse," although in any case evil crimes like murders and rapes are by their very evil nature also "Satanic."

How might SRA, whether called Satanic, Systematic or otherwise go?  For example, picture a Bible Convention where thousands of regular members of a group attend, sing songs, hear a lot of talks about the Bible.  At an agreed upon point in time, some of the clergy excuse themselves.  They drive to a nearby place of worship for their denomination.  Its windows, if any, are draped with purple curtains, and there is much other use made of purple, a color symbolic for Satanism.

Children, both boys and girls, are brought forth and raped, sometimes even by family or high up church officials.  The Satanists may wear masks such as for cartoon characters or animal faces, so that if years later any of the children ever report the ritualistic abuses to the police, the police will be much inclined to think what the kids say are lies, wrong recollections or symptoms of mental defects.  

The kids may also be forced to kill and or eat part of a small sacrificed animal if not a just born baby.  Shock may submerge their memories which surface only years later.  Their interest in normal sex may be destroyed, depression constant.

Most members in the group beyond the inner sanctum or "circle of intimates" do not know what is going on.  This includes some other clergymen in the group who are left out of the secret criminal or Satanic component so that they will insist, swear and give oaths that they know nothing of such things ever going on. 

Grassroots members and such of the clergy not given the "unbearable" knowledge of what is going on naturally believe that anyone, even loving family members, who speak badly of the leadership, must themselves be either liars or have some kind of mental problem or messed up memory. 

In any case, even putting "Satanic" Ritual Abuse controversy aside, the fact is that pedophiles do indeed get into religious groups and advance as far as possible up into leadership positions.  As shown time and again, when a grassroots member's child is raped by a pedophile then the heads of the local group may come to the parents and say something like:
"Just let it go!  Leave it in God's own hands!  Don't report this to the police or it's going to bring reproach upon God and God's earthly organization!  You'll actually be against God!"  

If the parents report the molestation to the police, then they may be accused by the clergy of being "slanderers" or verbal "smiters," and then punished by shunning or excommunication if not altogether kicked out of the organization and being stripped of all association with family and friends who remain in it.  The "Exclusive Brethern" group practices such cruel, anti-Christian destruction of families. 

Christ said he would divide households but it was over who did or didn't do what was right, not by severe group shunning or excommunication.  At 2 Corinthians 2:6 Paul admits that a "majority" and so therefore not all Christians had not shunned a wrongdoer whom he, Paul, had suggested they should shun.  This showed that even Paul could not order around other Christians although he could and did the younger man Timothy who was acting as a missionary worker. 

Yet cults demand that all followers must shun or be shunned.  James said to not have formal judging of fellow Christians, but there are groups that have committees set up to do just that.

The simple fact is that pedophiles, regardless of which group they are embedded in, are a pack of criminals.  Those pedophiles in one religious group sometimes network and help out those in other religious groups of totally different beliefs in order to try to shut up the victims and persons who speak up for the victims.  Christ said those hurting Little Ones deserved having a mill-stone put around their necks and then cast into the sea. (Luke 17:2)

Whether called Bishops, Elders or whatever, the pedophile clergy may tell some of the "Brothers and Sisters" who are among the most devout and faithful, that so-and-so or a certain family are "apostates," "Sons of Perdition" or a like name, and they must therefore be severely disciplined. 

Misinformed non-clergy "Brothers and Sisters" who are always ready to assist the clergy may be told that they are to play the part of "the Lord's evil spirit" (or Jehovah's evil spirit) which for example is mentioned at 1 Samuel 16:14 as terrorizing (NASB), tormenting, troubling, or terrifying Saul. 

The pedophile clergy may tell their gullible helpers that their activities will drive the person(s) out or make him or them return to the sheep's fold, snatch him or them out of the fire.  The "blind faith" obedience of such "Brothers and Sisters" reminds one of the "blind misleading the blind." 

The Satanic pedophiles embedded among the clergy (priests, bishops, elders, ministers) may have also have the parents wiretapped, may institute gang stalking or harassment, for example, having rocks hurled upon the parents' house top, doors rattled, obscene midnight phone calls, quick verbal warnings like "come back to God," a dead bird at the doorstep, etc; forced or by-key entry into a residence for positioning wiretaps or leaving behind noisemaking "spooky" or "wake-up" devices, etc, electronically activated from a distance, etc.

Pedophiles have a nearly 100% re-offending rate and are dangerous not only because of raping children, but for other offences.  For example they sometimes also commit murder, wiretap, harass, conduct peeping-Tom activities.

Although relatively few members may experience such systematic or Satanic abuses and harassment, all members in a group are seen by a Satanic cult to like so much clay that it can mold, trained, discipline, brainwash via the group's dangerous false doctrines. 

The Satanic molding, disciplining etc are constant.  Members are told that they must attend numerous lengthy meetings to please God, even though the time would be better spent taking one's family camping or picnicking etc. 

When adults and kids complain to others that there is a lack of happiness, that the religion doesn't permit joy, or the sort of gentle yoke that Christ says he offers, then they are told they are not being good enough, not Christian enough, wanting to take the easy way, immature etc, even though they are in fact correct.  Others have said that the International Church of Christ, a branch off of the regular Church of Christ, has been such an example.

When children bleed to death and their parents are told that it was God's will and that staying faithful to God unto death brings praise to God, then that too is a Satanic falsehood.  Jehovah's Witnesses are taught Acts 20 says abstain from blood so that they or their children must die rather than take emergency blood despite 1 Samuel 14:32-35 showing God forgave Saul's men who ate un-bled meat to stay alive.

Christ said that all who want a relationship with him must drink of the Last Supper or memorial emblems (John 6:53), and so when a group's heads tell members that God wants that only a select few members can partake, this is a form of the ritualistic practice which Satanists also follow called: "denying the body of Christ."

Some few groups, not just JWs, have top leaders who teach grassroots followers that God does not want them to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ even though angels did as shown clearly at Luke 2.  This denies joyful, rightful celebration even to the members' children.  The adults are wrongly taught that doing so actually pleases God when the opposite is true, another mark that is also anti-Christ and Satanic.

Some groups including the racist Aryan Brotherhood teach Theocratic Warfare.  TW is a doctrine saying it's okay to lie to ones enemies, whether they are external or internal to the group, because it helps the group which is doing God's work, and therefore such lying is pleasing to God.  This is certainly anti-Christ and Satanic.

Again, the most dangerous sign of a cult is the death of innocents.  It is sometimes heard  that some branches of Mormonism practice or have practiced secret, ritualistic "blood atonement" killings. 

Jim Jones in 1978 had over 909 American followers (276 being children) in his People's Temple group murdered along with himself in Guyana.  Some other killer groups have been the Branch Davidians offshoot of the Seventh Day Adventists, the Catholic offshoot called the Movement for the Restoration of the Ten Commandments of God was in Uganda, Africa, the UFO religious group called Heaven's Gate, the secret Solar Temple society based on Knights Templars, etc.

So, if one is in a "mainstream" group or a smaller group, in any case it is necessary to stay on guard, for Satan and his followers sometimes target mainstream groups as well.  For example there are Baptists preachers who have been convicted of evil crimes.

When people suddenly learn that they actually have been in a cult, they often feel deeply shocked, utterly betrayed and scarcely able to bear the real truth of whatever has finally ripped the veil off their eyes.  They may say to themselves, "How could I have been fooled so thoroughly and for so many years!"  They may leave quietly or they may seek to somehow fight and try to rescue their loved ones from within or outside the organization.

At Revelation 18:4 God says to get out of the evil sister-like branches of Christianity (and really any religion) that are controlled by Satan.  To not get out of her causes one to share in her sins and suffer her plagues.  Satan is real and so are those who knowingly do his bidding as well as subtly get others to do the same. 

Happily, though, as Christ also says, after you have received the Real Truth, then that truth will set you free. (John 8:32)  Satan flees from the bright spotlight of the truth into the darkest of shadows, though eager to find a better time to return.  

Let us busy ourselves then with what is joyful, happy and bright even while wide awake, on guard with the peaceful but powerful sword of Truth and the broad shield of Love.  Paul says Christians can also appeal to Caesar's sword, that is authorities or secular, governmental agencies such as the courts, police, and legislatures.

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(Tape is on sixscreensofthewatchtower.com)

Rick Fearon noted that he had been in Florida in 1993.  There, an anointed Sister mentioned with conviction and in credible tone that when a child in Pepperell (spelling?), MA, she and her sister were taken by their parents somewhere to a terrifying Satanic ritual event with JWs in it. 

He also mentioned that there was an Elder in Miami who had experienced a similar situation.  He said Miami is something of a picked city for Jehovah's Witness SRA. 

At Glocestershire in Tewksbury County, England, in 2007 active JW Eunice Spry was found guilty of terrorizing her three foster kids for 19 years, among other things beating them on the soles of their feet, made them drink bleach and starved them.  At least one was rubbed raw with sand paper.  She forced them to eat vomit and rat excrement; was sentenced to 26 years in prison.  These are the facts, documented in U.K. newspaper accounts.

So, although they would deny it, Jehovah's Witnesses are involved in such things.

In Dundee, Scotland, a Jehovah's Witness named William Shankster, was an evil bully who forced his kids to stand up with weights on their arms and beat them with a knife sharpener as they faltered.  He stuck little one's head in toilet, starved the kids in his room for up to 24 hours, forced them to walk miles to school.  He too was convicted and sent to prison.

A JW woman said a JW woman friend in Georgia she had been a victim of SRA.  Her parents were missionaries, even shareholders in the Watchtower.  She said her parents and other JWs were Satanists and there's a ring of Satanists in the Watchtower organization that may extend around the world.

A local Massachusett's friend of Rick and Inez Fearon had JW parents who were Finnish translators for Watchtower.  At the Watchtower as a child he was raped by Leo Greenlees, who is now deceased but was then of the Governing Body.   

(COMMENT: Interestingly, two weeks after the above Ravyn Giuliani also appeared on the telephone conference and alleged that named Elites at Watchtower world headquarters had participated, dressed in cult garments, at spiritistic "automatic writing" sessions held in small rooms if not separate sections of the tunnel section in Brooklyn's Bethel..... More items regarding SRA in the Watchtower organization are forthcoming so keep returning and reading here so as not to miss them.)

(Rough summary based on Nov 11, 2008 tape now posted at sixscreensofthewatchtower.com)

One morning Heidi’s dad took her and sister two hours to a non-JW hall, hit Heidi on thigh for being to fidgety.  Mother was nonJW and upset with him.  For a while he quit JWs.  In 1989 sister feel in love with Irish Catholic and married him, but it collapsed after a year. 


Now she was alone and having to raise a baby.  She started studying with JWs, is now married again for fifteen years and still an active JW.  She had been bubbly, now is quiet and appears in a cult.  She asked if Heidi wanted to also study using You Can Live Forever In Paradise On Earth book.


Heidi later studied with an Elder’s wife.   Heidi found it bizarre being told how she must dress to please Jehovah.   She found JWs at meetings too controlling, for example, disliked seeing that at a convention a JW father had a convention aggressively grab his little boy’s arm. 


In January 2002, Heidi felt gripped with fear of Watchtower’s message of Armageddon being just around the corner.  She hopped an airplane for an impromptu holiday trip to hear a band in Dublin.


She called up the Elder’s wife, called her and said she wanted no more of the study.  The Elder’s wife said Heidi was wrong to have kept asking “the same questions.”  She went to two more meetings, though; moved to a flat (apartment) about a two mile walk to the Watchtower.


She returned home from the second time at the hall and found her garden gate smashed, reeking of mold.  She went to a cafe, got on the internet, found a video and from it then went to sixscreensofthewatchtower.com. 


Heidi found out from it about Charles Taze Russell having been involved in the occult (that is, things such as necromancy, pyramidology, Masonic symbols etc).  Russell had died on Halloween night, a fact that found her laughing. 


What JWs taught then they don’t teach today, changing their expressed beliefs to make them more acceptable to the public.  Heidi wondered how her sister could now be a JWs.  She has since also read David Icke’s Children Of The Night and a book about Watchtower’s occult connections by researcher Fritz Springmeier on the Illuminati organization. 


Returning to Icke, Heidi mentioned that in his book he tells of a Diana Huckston (?) doing research on Watchtower and finding for example that Watchtower has underground tunnels under Brooklyn headquarters where they have practiced Satanic Ritual Abuses. 


Although having left Watchtower, she still feels its effect, for example sometimes having had nightmares.  She spoke with Mary of New York who related similar post-Watchtower effects and stressed that unlike the Watchtower organization, God doesn’t change. 


Mary talked about how she herself had been stalked by JW Elders.   Heidi said she also found it upsetting how the Elders were constantly watching, assessing her. 

MARY WOODARD'S heroism and pioneering efforts to protect children suffering sexual abuses from Watchtower officials have already been noted by Bill Bowen of silentlambs.org.  She recently emailed to say she has remarried, now is Mary Kochan and an editor of a Catholic publication.  Bill Bowen wrote the following introduction about her efforts:

Read the story that started it all, "Moving Forward."  Written by a faithful sister Mary Woodard in 1989 to address the horrifc problem of abuse in the organization of Jehovah's Witnesses.  Mary traveled to the writing department and intervewed personally with the head of the department.  The result of that interview was the 10/08/91 article in the Awake on abuse that helped so many to feel the organization was finally acknowledging there was a problem. To read this article you will not find any reference to this article from JW publications on their website or otherwise when dealing with abuse. The article defines repressed memories and shows how they are triggered by abuse. The Organizaiton of JW's have since backed away from this with the publishing of the 1995 Watchtower article on this topic.  The Watchtower 1995, 11/1 pages 28-29 in the Article, "Comfort for Those With a Stricken Spirit", under the heading, "What Can Elders Do?" plainly states:

"If the accusation is denied, the elders should explain to the accuser that nothing more can be done in a judicial way. And the congregation will continue to view the one accused as an innocent person. The Bible says that there must be two or three witnesses before judicial action can be taken. (2Cor.13:1; 1 Tim. 5:19) Even if more than one person "remembers" abuse by the individual, the nature of these recalls is just too uncertain to base judicial decisions on them without other supporting evidence. This does not mean that such "memories" are viewed as false (or that they are viewed as true). But Bible principles must be followed in establishing a matter judicially."

Certain men with conscience wrote the article of 1991 in the Awake magazine.  They were subsequently silenced as were thousands of victims of Watchtower policy on child abuse. Read the article "Moving Forward" written by a sister trying to help others understand and move on with their lives.

Moving Forward

Help for Witnesses Handling Issues of Abuse and Victimization in their Lives


by Mary Woodard, Douglasville, Georgia, October 1989


The breakdown of family life in the time of the end has taken a terrible toll on this generation. More and more of our brothers and sisters are facing the fact that their mental and emotional damage from growing up with family dysfunction and child abuse is deeper and longer lasting than they ever imagined. As they realize that their childhood experiences may not only have influenced but dictated the pattern of their adult lives, they begin to come to terms with issues of trust and intimacy that affect all of their relationships.

The following information is presented to help their friends and spiritual shepherds understand the spiritual and moral consequences they endure. It is hoped that this will enable them to express their love for the victims in the most helpful way, and specific suggestions are included as to how this can be done.

The author is a Christian Sister whose self observations provide insight into the thinking of someone facing these issues in her own life. The author would like to stress that though this is partly a personal account, the thoughts and feelings expressed herein are common to victims of abuse. It is offered with love and the expectation that the empathy of our friends and Jehovah's spirit will accompany us into recovery.


Moving Forward

I grew up in South Florida where long days at the beach are taken-for-granted part of summer. Walking under the palms in the grassy area near the beach is safe for bare feet. But, the sun heats the open sandy beach itself above a temperature tolerable to the touch. One day I forgot and ran toward the water heedless of my unprotected soles. When I realized I was being burned I stopped, hopping on alternate feet to look back and decide whether I would endure less pain dashing back to the grass or racing ahead to the ocean. I was equidistant from both, and since the reason I had come to the beach was to get in the water, I rushed on and in moments immersed my burned feet in the soothing sea water.

The problem with life is sometimes the same. To go ahead is painful, to go back is painful, and to stand still is intolerable. We have to remember that we came to the beach to get in the water, we came to life to live it, in order to plunge on ahead.

Who are the people for whom life is so painful that a real danger exists they may decide not to live it? I don't know them all, but I know some of them. And I am qualified to write about them because I am one of them. We are adults who were hurt as children and are still hurting. I am writing this to help you, our friends and spiritual shepherds, recognize some patterns of behavior and personality that identify us and provide some insight into the moral and spiritual problems we face. This may help you feel more confident in dealing with us.

One elder, himself a victim of sexual abuse, commented that "Satan was the first child molester". Satan picked the youngest and most vulnerable of Jehovah's family to seduce. The resulting corruption of Eve's character, including the guilt reaction, set the pattern for all future child abusers/molesters.

Sexual abuse of children, by no means new, is surely the crime of the time of the end. Through this activity, Satan accomplishes several goals. Sexual abuse may implant within the victim a tendency toward immorality much more compelling than that which follows naturally from inherited sin. Our abuse as children has damaged our self-identity and self-esteem. We feel like we have no control over our lives. We do, in reality, engage in out-of-control behaviors (compulsions) and out-of-control thinking (obsessions). Our lack of self-control is closely related to a feeling of not knowing who we are. Though we do not know ourselves, we hate and loathe ourselves. Our out-of-control thinking and behavior produces guilt, and the guilt reinforces our negative self-image and out-of-control feelings. This negative downward spiral may send us into a moral and spiritual tailspin from which recovery is difficult and painful.

Our lack of self-esteem makes it difficult to follow the command to "Love your neighbor as yourself". How attractive to me are people who operate from a center of health and self assurance. I wonder: What it would be like to love my neighbor as I loved myself? What would it be like to look out on the world from an inner room of peace and confidence? Sometimes I'm almost there. Oh, God! How I want to be like that!

If we hate, despise, ourselves, how can we ever love our neighbor? Blessedly, we have an inspired definition of love that describes love, not as a feeling, but, rather action. By training in the application of bible principles even those of us who are badly damaged by abuse can learn to show love to others. This engenders in others a loving response which, over time, can begin to build self-esteem and heal us.

Our interpersonal relationships are affected by our unclear self-identity and low self-esteem, and our relationship with Jehovah is also affected. Until recently I held the delusion that I could hide part of myself from Jehovah. I was sure that if I revealed myself completely Jehovah would hate me as much as I hated myself, condemn me as I condemned myself. What despair lay behind these thoughts! So, I maintained my delusion in spite of the clear intellectual knowledge that Jehovah knew everything about me, knew me better than I knew myself.

One thing we are good at is mental gymnastics. We are good at thinking one thing while feeling another; perceiving one thing while believing another.

Of all the precious benefits being in therapy and recovery have brought me so far, the breaking down of my barriers to freeness of speech in prayer is the one I treasure most.

Sexual abuse produces in the victim a profound sense of shame. This is compounded by the fact that on a physical level, some forms of abuse are pleasurable to the victim. Youngsters who have a healthy childhood naturally experience a coming alive of sexual feeling in adolescence, but for some of us those sensations were overwhelmingly the major feelings of our childhood. Even with mature, loving parental guidance, young men and women find their awakening to sexuality confusing and hard to handle. Yet they have had thirteen or fourteen or so years to develop coping mechanisms such as self-control, communication skills, delayed gratification, etc. What skills does an infant or young child possess to cope with the intensity of sexual feelings? Little or none. At the same time the abuse itself retards the development of other emotions and qualities of character and personality.

Since the abuser is usually close to the victim -- many of our abusers were family members -- serious issues of trust are brought into play. Parents represent all good to the child. They provide food, love and security. They are all-powerful, all-knowing, and all right. Our very survival depended on believing in our parents. When our parents were abusive, we did not attribute bad to them, we attributed bad to ourselves. We internalized a negative self-image. Once we had done that we expected to be hurt; we believed we deserved whatever pain came our way. And, if the pain didn't come to us we would go and get it.

Particularly in the case of girls abused by their fathers, a pattern of victimization is set up. Until released through therapy, some of us will, time and again, choose relationships with abusive men. We believe in our core that we deserve the abuse. If fact, the abuse feels like love. We may appear foolishly gullible, but in reality, we are armor plated. We trust no one.

We are not attracted to "nice men". We go for the ones who are addicted, abusive, or violent, and our radar is so sensitive that we have little trouble finding men like this within the Christian congregation. A relationship with a man like that lets us relive, and thereby "fix", our relationship with our fathers. We desire someone who is unresponsive to our needs, someone with whom true intimacy is impossible because we do not trust enough to be vulnerable.

We are angry. Some of us repress our anger and turn it inward. It may be virulent enough-to damage or subvert our immune system and kill us by disease. We deny our anger because to feel our anger is dangerous.

In order to feel our anger we have to believe that we are deserving of better treatment. If we come to believe that the woman we are now deserves better, then we must believe that the child we were also deserved better. This logically leads to the conclusion that "Daddy" was the one who was wrong or bad. It may be less painful to continue to be abused by our husbands or boyfriends than to face up to who or what "Daddy" was.

This serves Satan's plan well because it inhibits our development of a relationship with Jehovah as our heavenly father. I never related to Jehovah as a father. As God, Lord, Sovereign, Creator, yes, but as father, no! I did not trust Jehovah. I'm still working on this. This is not the same as faith. I have strong faith. The problem lies in trusting Jehovah with my feelings.

So the end result of abuse is adults who function in many ways like children. We are unable to be known to ourselves or to others. We cannot freely approach the throne of undeserved kindness, we have strong tendencies to engage in destructive behav­iors. We are trained to be victims, perfect targets for Satan.

What is abuse? Abuse takes many forms. All parents mistreat their children sometimes; that comes with imperfection. What damages a child is a pattern of family life where the child's emotional need for unconditional love is generally unmet. This can occur without overt physical or sexual abuse in a dysfunctional family. Anyone who grew up in a family with an addicted parent grew up in a dysfunctional family. But sexual abuse is such an overpowering violation of self-hood that just one incident may have tragic consequences. Rather than over dramatizing, many victims minimize the incident(s) and many who were abused do not recognize that what happened was abusive even when they fully recollect it. People who suffer from shame, low self-esteem, lack of self-identity and compulsive/obsessive behavior, were victims of abuse, whether they recall it or not.

How do we manage to function at all? How do we, with our damaged spirituality and emotions, carry on for years as participating members of the congregation of God's people?

To answer that it would be helpful to have a working definition of what constitutes mental/emotional health. The following explanation (provided by a brother who is a Mental Health professional) is elegantly simple, immediately applicable and totally in harmony with the bible.

When someone is mentally/emotionally healthy the person they are on the outside, which they present to others, their personality (including their practices) is a reflection of what they are on the inside. What a person is on the inside is what the bible calls "the secret person of the heart".'

When someone is mentally/emotionally sick, the person they are on the outside, which they present to others, their personality (including their practices) hides or conceals what they are on the inside.

There can be two reasons why someone would hide who they really are. They may be evil and be putting on a false front like Satan does when he "transforms himself into an angel of light". Or, the person may have been so badly hurt when young that they have build up layers of defenses to keep the secret person of the heart from being wounded anymore. If these layers of defenses are strong enough and complex enough, they may form an alternate personality that is very different from what the person truly is inside.

What is it like for someone to be locked away inside these defensive barriers? I always felt disconnected and unreal, as though I did not exist in the "real world" with everyone else. .The barrier was almost palpable like a curtain or wall. I envi­sioned myself tearing it apart or knocking it down and stepping through to the other side. Sometimes I even reached my hands out to do so, but there was nothing there that I could grab ahold of or beat down. Now, after some therapy, I feel like I am at least really here. But who is the "I" that is here? I don't know who I am. I have no clear edges. My boundaries are fuzzy. I can't tell exactly where I leave off and someone else begins. This makes it hard for me to set limits on my own behavior and on the behavior of others toward me. I tend to fade in and out like an out-of-focus picture. As my layers of defenses come down, I feel fragile. Sometimes I'm so thin and brittle I fear I might break apart, or so insubstantial I am afraid I'll disappear back inside. But I like being here. So I fight hard to get myself in focus, to feel my edges, to feel solid and whole.

The defenses we built up in childhood were appropriate survival measures given the circumstances of life we were endur­ing. When we persist in these behaviors and thought patterns as adults we are behaving inappropriately. The same defenses we built up to keep out pain now keep us away from what we need.

The negative messages we received as children -- that we are stupid, a failure, unwanted, bad, unlovable and worthless -- were not simply stated to us. They were transmitted with the volume all the way up, often accompanied by a hail of blows. They were loud, consistent and compelling. We erected strong defenses against these messages, but it was no good. They still got through. We believed them. Later, when people gave us positive messages about ourselves, our work, or anything, the positive messages could not get through the defenses. We never believed any good thing that was said to us about ourselves.

Because of the defenses we built, the outer person may have personality traits or engage in practices that are out of harmony with the desires of the secret person of the heart. We are all familiar with the teenage boy who hides his insecurity behind a facade of macho bravado. An abuse victim's entire personality may be a "snow job". We hide our lack of control by exercising extraordinary control over some aspect of our lives. We may appear very controlled and organized to cover up our internal chaos. We walk on the edge all the time. We are desperate. We cover up our low esteem with many genuine, (though often frantic) accomplishments, none of which nourish our inner self. We may seem arrogant or egotistical, while inside feeling inadequate or worthless. The elder previously mentioned said he can spot the victims who are always smiling and pretending to be fine, because "they have a hunted look in their eyes".

When you are dealing with victims of abuse try to remember that many unpleasant personality traits we exhibit do not reflect the person we are inside. Even wrong practices may be part of our defense mechanism. This is because we behave compulsively. We do not make choices; we do not know ourselves enough to ask "What do I want?" We are controlled, not in control. Compulsive behaviors include either refraining from or over indulging in the following:


FOOD: Food may equal nurturing. This is a favorite compulsion for victims of abuse. In some cases the nature of sexual abuse may develop a desire to control what is put in the mouth. Because ethyl alcohol is similar chemically to sugar, children of alcoholic parents may be biologically predisposed to addiction to sugar as well as alcohol. Symptoms of malnutrition in a sister who has a family-of-origin history of alcoholism may indicate a binge-purge (bulimia) or anorexia eating disorder.


SEX: Compulsive sexual misconduct ranges from masturbation to promiscuity. Many female victims end up as prostitutes. Women whose personal boundaries are unclear are vulnerable to sexual advances that healthier women would reject automatically. They may literally not know how to say "No". For sisters who have this problem, a commitment to uphold Jehovah's sovereignty by following his moral standards is their only protection. Precocious (early) sexual behavior in children or compulsive (repeated or multiple partners) misconduct in teenagers should be considered a red flag that may warn of a dysfunctional family with possible sexual abuse.

WORK: Many companies depend on a core of workaholics as the engine of their success. Healthy people find job satisfaction; a workaholic never does. This problem may be misdiagnosed as materialism. Even the most sublime work available to humans today -- Kingdom Evangelism -- can be engaged in compulsively.

MONEY: Money is representative. Its value is not inherent but attributed. This means we can hang all kinds of psychic baggage on money. Someone who is behaving compulsively with money may spend (shop) or may hoard. Severe and recurring disagreements about money between married people may represent power struggles and/or sexual problems.

SUBSTANCE ABUSE: Alcohol or drugs are a major compulsion problem. This problem cannot exist in a family without causing the family system to become dysfunctional. As with sexual mis­conduct, substance abuse by a young witness should be a red flag.

RAGE: The rage-a-holic gets his high from the adrenalin surge of anger. There is a build up period, then release, then recovery and the cycle repeats. Children of rage-a-holics suffer effects similar to children of alcoholics. Their environment makes no sense.

GAMBLING: Compulsive gambling involving wagering or betting is not difficult to identify, but gambling may also include: consistent tardiness to work; speeding; reckless driving; stealing (shoplifting) or other criminal acts; mishandling of checking accounts; unsafe sex; careless use of birth control; courting danger in sports, and disregard for safety procedures in handling tools and equipment.

CO-DEPENDENCY: This is an addiction to relationships. The most succinct definition I ever heard for "Co-dependency is being dependent on someone else being dependent on you". It's called co-dependency because the person with this addiction often links up with someone who has another addictive disorder. Or, two co-dependents get together. This is often called "love".

These are the major areas where compulsion shows up. Even the most innocuous activities can be engaged in compulsively. We may be compulsive about organization of personal belongings, personal hygiene, house cleaning, exercise, appearance, T.V. watching, hand washing or protecting our own children.

When a compulsive behavior involves indulgence it becomes an addictive disorder. This is true whether or not actual physical addiction occurs. For this reason all of the different compul­sions (work, sex, food, etc.) are referred to by mental health professionals as the Drug of Choice. Interestingly the most effective treatment for all of the addictive disorders is the same. It is a program of spiritual recovery.

Here is an important clue for someone questioning his own degree of control: IF YOU ARE TRYING TO CONTROL SOMETHING, THAT THING IS CONTROLLING YOU.

Being in the Truth mitigates the effects of the mental illness by providing the strongest motivation to avoid bad conduct. But there will be unavoidable breakdowns in this protection in someone who is sick enough. It is possible to live subject to compulsions and obsessions and not be seriously violating Jehovah's law. Still, this behavior keeps us from taking responsibility for our own life. For many years I engaged in all kinds of compulsive behaviors while appearing sane, by constantly switching from one Drug of Choice to another. Whenever a certain activity got out of hand or I thought I might get caught or go crazy, I switched to a different compulsion. I often had a number going at once. This is a tortured way to live.

Obsession is to thinking what compulsion is to behavior. Obsession may accompany compulsion. A compulsive eater may be obsessed with thoughts of food.

Obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors allow us who have no clear self-identity and who are out of contact with our feelings and desires, to pretend to have a real life. We cling to our obsessions and compulsions because they let us fake living and we are afraid that without them we will cease to exist.

We crave the up-down, high-then-crash, roller coaster ride our compulsions provide. The turmoil and pain these things bring into our lives are a substitute for the real feelings we have buried. A normal life feels like sensory deprivation.

Co-dependents measure the depth of love by the degree of pain. We are intelligent, insightful and generous. We are in touch with the conflicting feelings of everyone else but we have no idea what we are feeling.

We live in fantasy, never seeing things as they are, but seeing them as we want them to be. We try to manipulate reality to conform to our fantasy. And we can't figure out why this doesn't work.

We take more than our share of responsibility for our rela­tionships. We even take responsibility for people with whom we have no relationship. Co-dependents are the women who marry convicts while they are still in prison!

We are caretakers rather than care givers. We do not just give needed care. Rather we take care of, for others, what they should take care of themselves. By taking care of others we are trying to make up, vicariously, for the care we did not receive as children.

Co-dependents over-function for others. This is control masquerading as assistance. In the Truth this can be observed among sisters who over-function spiritually for their husbands. Another common situation is that of publishers (usually sisters) who become entangled in the lives of their bible students. Even before the students have taken a stand for the Truth, the pub­lisher is baby sitting for them, finding them a job, ferrying them about town, helping them with bills, etc. Co-dependents are the world's greatest rescuers. We anticipate the needs of others and we will take care of them, whether our help is wanted or wasted.

The only person we do not take care of is ourselves. We believe it is noble to deprive ourselves. We may appear to be practicing Christian self-sacrifice, but that can only be prac­ticed by someone who has a "self" to sacrifice. The truth is we do not believe we have the right to enjoy life or to be happy, and we will sabotage our own success if the pleasure in our lives rises to an "uncomfortable" level.

Some people who have "hit bottom" with co-dependency and alcoholism have said that the co-dependency was worse. Female co-dependents may be addicted to men and pain. We do not feel like we have any valid existence outside of a relationship. After all
the years on the roller coaster ride, to walk on terra firms seems boring. There is no point to life when we are fully in the grip of our addiction.   »

I pass a traffic accident. A woman sits behind the wheel of her crumpled car, her face covered with blood. I am jealous of her physical pain, and I am jealous of the chaos that has come into her life temporarily relieving her of her day to day respon­sibilities. People are rushing to her, their hands reaching out to her, making contact in their compassionate recognition of her obvious need. And I am jealous of that too. I am as hurt and traumatized as she is but because my injuries are not visible, I am often without caring contact. I know that my envy of her is a sign of how sick I am.

A school bus stops ahead of me to unload a group of high schoolers. One girl who gets off doesn't get in step with the others who are filing around the front of the bus toward home. Instead, she faces the door of the bus expectantly. Moments later a tall young man bounds off the bus and kisses her. I watch them as they chat. He reaches his hand out in what appears to be the start of a caress, but suddenly he had made a fist and hit her on the cheek. She moves away from him, falling in line with other students as he pursues her. They are out of my sight for a few seconds, but when they reappear, his arm is around her shoulder and she is leaning against him as they walk. My stomach churns. Her future is my past, and there is nothing I can do to save her. In my recognition of her, and in my compassion, I have a sign of my progress toward health.

Our obsessions and compulsions represent a lack of self control. The ultimate loss of control is in death, so obses­sions/compulsions are pathways to death. They are mini-suicides robbing us of control, bit by bit, and may lead us to actual suicide. On the other hand, self control is a fruitage of the spirit of God who is the source of life.

Our lack of self control/esteem/identity, results from our being taught not to trust our own perceptions. Our feelings were denied rather than validated.

One sister remembers: "When my father finished beating me in one of his rage-a-holic fits, I went crying into my room. My mother followed me in and I turned to her and said, 'I hate him!' she replied 'No you don't you don't really feel that way'".

Victims internalize a set of rules:

We don't feel what we feel. We don't think what we think. We don't see what we see. We don't hear what we hear.

The most important rule is: DON"T TALKI Any cultural, organizational or familial system that prevents the free and honest expression of feelings, or which encourages people to pretend that things are not as they really are, fosters mental illness within it's members.

As young children we take on the role of protecting and defending our abusers. This is the beginning of co-dependency.

Even with all these problems we may function within normal parameters. We get married, raise families, work, carry out congregational responsibilities, preach, etc. Many of us have some rough times as teenagers, then settle down in our twenties into an apparently stable life. But, something goes wrong later on. We have some unfinished work to do.

At first we don't know what's going on. We increase our compulsive behavior as our internal controls start to break down. We think "This can wait until after Armageddon. I don't have time for this now".

Coping mechanisms we used in youth suddenly reappear. Our out of control thoughts and behaviors cause guilt and shame. We feel like we are falling apart. We may believe, or others may tell us we have a spiritual problem that can be solved by more field service, study, etc. When this doesn't work we may start to think that our faith has failed us or that we have failed our faith.

Some of us have flashbacks of childhood experiences. This is a symptom of post-traumatic stress disorder. We try to put the lid back on. Some of us have litanies, a phrase we repeat so we can get back on top. I sat for hours saying to myself: "Don't think, don't think, don't think" over and over. If we cannot squelch the memories we may begin or go back to using drugs or alcohol to drown them out, or numb the pain. A real spiritual problem can develop if substance abuse goes unchecked. We get depressed and thoughts of suicide begin to seduce us.

What do we need from our friends, mates, and spiritual shepherds? We need to be participants in a very special kind of communication. There are a few essential things we do need to be told, but we mostly need to be heard. It is amazing how much work we can do on our own recovery, just having someone to listen to us. All the advice in the world will not heal someone. We heal ourselves. If you try to take away someone's pain, you are disabling them and participating in victimization. It may be very difficult to listen and not jump in with a lot of advice or scriptures etc. But, if you will do it, you will be privileged to see miracles.

We need:

1.    Exoneration

2.   Acceptance and Approval

3.   Respect

(1) Exoneration: We need to be freed from guilt and shame. We need to be told that we were victims, that what happened to us was not our fault, that we were not to blame. We may need to hear this message over and over. Remember, it has to get through the defenses to the secret person of the heart.

We don't just feel guilty because of the abuse, we feel guilty because of the ways we coped with it; we are ashamed of our compulsive behaviors. We need to be told that whatever we did to survive was OK. We had a right to survive. Recovery cannot occur unless survival comes first.

Guilt and shame are not synonymous. Guilt is healthy, shame is not. The internal messages are different. The message of guilt is "I have done something bad." The message of shame is "I am bad". Guilt motivates us, shame debilitates us. Shame has to do with self worth and may have no connection with conduct.

We did not go through the normal stages of emotional development. Some of us were trained in immorality from infancy. We feel shame because of the bizarre, intrusive, confusing, furtive or frightening nature of our first sexual experiences. Some of us have discovered perverted desires in ourselves and we are ashamed of these. We need to be told that we are not to blame for having these desires. It isn't our fault. We are responsible for our behaviors. Most of us have triumphed over Satan's programming of us. All of us can.

(2) Acceptance and Approval: If you could stand for a moment in the shoes of a victim of sexual abuse and feel the depth and intensity of our self-loathing, you would be shocked and shaken. One addictive disorders counselor said, "If we did to others what we do to ourselves we would be sued, imprisoned, and scorned by society". We have figured out ways to pay for our "crimes" that truly constitute cruel and unusual punishment. But we are experts at enlisting others to punish us too. We especially enjoy the services of authority figures in this and Elders fall into that category.

Once we recognize ourselves as victims, we have taken the first step toward recovery. Now we need to learn who we are, we need to define ourselves. Your acceptance and approval affirms what is good in us. It takes many positive messages to counteract the negative ones we have stored in our heads.

We are almost psychic when it comes to reading others' feelings. We have been tuning into others and blocking our own feelings all our lives. This starts with having to read what kind of mood our parents were in so we would know how safe we were from minute to minute. This ability may make us seem overly sensitive. We can't help it. With our ill-defined boundaries, a flicker of irritation across someone's face may assault us like a blow. If you are trying to help a victim and you cannot truly accept and approve of them, forget it. You are not the man for the job.

As I start recovery, If find I am hungry to hear good things about myself. Some Elders seem afraid to offer praise to me. Others are warmly supportive. From them up-building and encour­aging words just flow.

When I get better, stronger, I will be able to say good things to myself. I will gradually replace the negative "tapes" in my head with positive ones. I will apply myself consciously and systematically to the task. I've already begun, but in the meantime, the acceptance and approval of others is important to my recovery. It is where I am right now and I accept that I am where I am.

If you are trying to help a victim, do not hold back your affirmations of their personal worth. Do not be afraid that your praise will make us "puffed up". Remember how low our self-esteem is.

Accepting me means accepting my feelings. Denial of the validity of feelings is a form of emotional abuse. Never tell someone "you shouldn't feel that way". A feeling is a fact. I feel the way I feel.

It's easy to accept positive feelings, but negative emotions may push the wrong buttons in you. Keep it in perspective, remembering who is sick and who is well. Don't take things personally. Many of us have repressed anger. It may leak out and hurt those around us, even those who are trying to help us. We need to TALK ABOUT OUR FEELINGS. Victims who deny they are angry may be more comfortable for you to deal with than those who are feeling and expressing anger. But, the latter are further along in recovery.

We are emotionally retarded and confused. We may come across as rude, selfish, arrogant, demanding, cold or indifferent. Don't be fooled; we are terrified.

Female victims are usually co-dependent, fearful and angry with men, yet craving their acceptance and approval. We may need to be encouraged to do a reality check. Question whether we are responding to a here and now situation, or reenacting something from the past. It may even help to say, "I am not the man that hurt you, I am not going to hurt you".

Male victims are just as fearful as female victims, but they tend to be as afraid of their own potential to hurt others as they are afraid of others. One Christian brother went into severe isolation and depression when his first child was born because of his fear that he would, like so many male victims, become an abuser. Men who are adult children of alcoholics (ACOA'S), may have intense needs to control and dominate others. This is a reaction to the unpredictable conditions of their early life. They may be more difficult to reach than female victims because of reluctance to express emotions, fear of appearing weak, etc. As with female victims the key is getting them to share their feelings and standing by with acceptance and approval.

(3) Respect: Moving into recovery is hard work. It is clearly the hardest thing I have ever done and I have done a lot of hard things. But it's not visible work and I don't get paid for it. Sometimes I'm so occupied with this work that I am unable to carry out the other tasks of my life. So, when I'm doing the least work on the outside I may be doing my most productive work on the inside. That goes along great until I begin to worry that I am probably getting a reputation as self indulgent or as a malingerer.

I don't expect everyone to understand this illness, but I do want those who are closest to me to respect the hard work I am doing. Still, whether they do or not, I will respect it. I will give this work the time and energy it requires and I will seek out those who respect me and are understanding and supportive.

When you work with victims of child abuse it may help you to be aware that the mental health profession calls us survivors. Like those who have walked, dignity and humanity intact, out of a concentration camp, we deserve your respect.



Have confidence in the body-mind tendency to heal. In medicine this is called homeostasis. Even in our imperfect condition this powerful tendency exists and functions well in most people.

Recovery takes place in stages. It is a two-steps-forward, one-step-back process. There may be a number of healing crises, these should be viewed positively. Always express confidence in the friend's tendency toward health. Remember that people live up or down to the expectations of those around them.

I am fascinated by the progress of recovery. It is amazing to observe it is myself and to read or hear about it in others. I find I have to be patient with myself. I cannot force this along. I am cooperating with a natural process.

Overcoming obsessions and compulsions takes place in a pattern. First, I recognize the behavior. Now if I engage in self-recrimination over it, immersing myself in shame, I get nowhere in changing the behavior. Instead, I find it helps me to play a more detached role, like an observer. I accept that I own that behavior and that I am choosing to engage in it. I try to notice if anything triggers it, if there are practical changes I need to make in my life. I make everything as easy for myself as possible. Then I forgive myself and tell myself that when I am ready, I will change this behavior. Amazingly, it seems to disappear without effort. I find this incredible. I didn't know I was so cooperative. I always thought I had to beat myself up to accomplish anything.

Children are victims, adults are volunteers. Many of us set up a life situation that replays childhood conflicts. Some of us realize first that we are being abused as adults and that leads us to explore victimization in our lives and finally get back and dig up the childhood experiences. Others of us start out dealing with the childhood stuff, and then come to see that the pattern of abuse is continuing.

If we are living with abuse or with an addict, we are co-dependent. Healthy people will not put up with what we tolerate. We will endure anything. I always thought, "If I could stand it, it must be O.K.". It never occurred to me that life was to be lived, not just survived. Co-dependency is the normal response of someone who lives for an extended time in an abnormal situation. Everyone engages sometimes in some co-dependent behavior. But for some of us co-dependency is an illness that has taken on a life of its own. It is a progressive, fatal condition. Recovery is ongoing; it is one day at a time. Like an alcoholic, I can never stop recovering. My choice is not between sickness and health; it is between the process of the illness and the process of recovery.

What if you recognize a victim before the victim recognizes himself or herself? It's very difficult to help a victim who is in denial. I read plenty of articles including the ones in the Watchtower and Awake about mental illness, child abuse, battered wives, etc. But, while I was in denial, I never believed any of this stuff applied to me. You will have to wait for the person to get ready to go through the process. Ultimately, our live become unmanageable. You can put yourself on standby; let them know, "If you ever want to talk about this, I'm willing to listen". Be prepared, once the dam breaks and the friend starts to talk, they may not be able to stop until its all out. Provide appropriate venues for them to express themselves and listen, listen, listen, accept, accept, accept.

(Of course if the person is engaging in immorality, child abuse, spouse abuse, drunkenness, drug abuse, or criminal activity, the disciplinary function of the congregation provides intervention as well as the leverage to encourage treatment.)

For the victim who is ready .but is having trouble remember­ing, some things that can help are: conversations with siblings, looking at old photographs, visiting childhood sites, listening to or reading others' experiences. Reading this paper may help someone recognize their underlying problem. Writing as therapy is highly recommended. One therapist said that writing communicates what is learned by one part of us to another part of us. I found that writing puts my intelligence and creativity in charge of leading me towards health.

How do you know whether or not professional help is requir­ed? You don't. But the victim probably will. We can tell in which direction we are headed. Since issues of domination, control or free-will may be involved, we should be encouraged to make our own decisions, and as much as possible, direct our own recovery.

This applies to people whose illness is the result of childhood abuse, but whose brain functions are otherwise normal. Prof­essional evaluation should be sought for those who are severely depressed, suicidal, or whose coping abilities have broken down, so that medical treatment can be used where it would be helpful. One sister, for example, is being treated for a problem with brain chemistry, manic depression, and also having talk therapy to deal with childhood issues. Just as people can have more than one physical illness or injury at a time, they can have more than one mental illness at a time.

Thousands of people are moving into recovery by reading, writing, talking and listening, without individual therapy by a professional. Many others use a therapist to orient them to the task and then get on with it with the help of a support group. A support network is very important. Some Witnesses are getting this within their congregation, while others are finding it elsewhere.

Some of you elders may hesitate to get involved with people going through some of these things. You may not have a choice. Some of you are married to victims. Some of you feel unqualified and afraid. You can overcome that by education. Your best source of information will probably be the friend you are trying to help. We are often very clued in to what we need and if you listen we will tell you.

I've been helped toward recovery by an elder, by the staffs at the Mental Health unit of a hospital, and by a twelve-step group. But there was something I got from one of my Christian overseers that I could not get from anyone else. I grew up "in the truth", my roots go down deep into Jehovah's organization and I deeply respect His sacred arrangements. When I received exon­eration, acceptance, approval and respect from one of his spirit directed servants, that elder represented Jehovah for me. The positive effect on my spirituality was immediate and dramatic. I was then able to take the security I felt in Jehovah's care for me into the other therapeutic situations. This was something I needed and something I deserved as a faithful Christian. It would be a tragedy to withhold that from one of the friends because you thought a professional was more qualified.

I've come a long way and I've learned a lot. I've learned that life is for living now, and not just for surviving until Armageddon. I've learned that the only person I have control over is myself. I've learned that my thoughts and desires are separate from my actions and practices. I've learned that love is not pain, poverty is not good, and anger is not bad. I've learned I have choices and its O.K. for me to make a mistake. I'm discovering that I have boundaries. I've learned that I don't have to apologize for being here. I've- learned that just because someone gives me something doesn't mean I have to eat it, use it, or wear it. I've learned that thee are enough good things in life for me to have some too, and it's O.K. for me to want them.

This sounds good, but really I'm tricking you. I'm intellectualizing. Most of this I've read and heard, and I don't really believe it. But I will. I will keep reading it and listening to it and saying it until I do believe it.

Most of this stuff probably sounds simple and obvious. One of the problems with mentally ill people is that we don't see the obvious. We've grown up with a bizarre set of rules to fit our bizarre circumstances. We have to learn the things normal people take for granted. We have to find out what normal is. We have to find out what our feelings are.

I am driving down the road with all my kids and suddenly I have a feeling. At least I think it's a feeling. I'm learning to pay attention to feelings. So I send all the kids to the back of the van and turn off the radio so I can concentrate on this possible feeling. It takes me a moment to identify what this feeling is. It's shame; I am ashamed. I try to figure out why.

I think about what was on the radio and what I was talking about with the kids. Then I hit on it. Several blocks before I caught myself with that feeling, I had made an error in driving that inconvenienced (just inconvenienced, not endangered!) another driver. I thought at the time, "Boy, I'll bet she thinks I'm stupid". Now I'm having this terrible feeling. Before therapy I would have stuffed it down inside. I would have emotionally abused myself by saying, "I have no reason to feel this way". So, I make a decision to let myself experience this feeling.

Great! Here I am driving down the street with a van full of kids feeling ashamed. Now what do I do? I decide to see just where this feeling will lead if I give it full rein. I find myself thinking, "I shouldn't drive; I'm too stupid. I'm so stupid I don't deserve to live". Now I'm pretty surprised. I didn't know THAT was still lurking around down inside. I start to argue. I bring my sense of fairness into play. "Well, if I don't deserve to live because I made a mistake in driving, what about all the other mistakes everyone else makes all the time?" "They don't deserve to live either". Now, that certainly is fair enough, but I'm shocked. Have I really been walking around with all this misanthropy? Hate your neighbor as you hate yourself? I kick in my sense of humor. Maybe the next time my kids make a mistake I'll stand them against the wall and shoot them. The ludicrousness of the whole thing is becoming clear. I decide I have had enough of this feeling and that when I turn the corner I am going to stop feeling this way. I will forgive myself and everyone else, and I do.

My head is a minefield and I never know when something is going to blow up. But if I walk and run and stomp and dance around in there long enough I'll get rid of them. That is why my recovery has to be major priority in my life.

I am not alone on this journey, nor is the path uncharted. Many others have already been here and their stories give me hope and show me where I am headed. I've got some tough stuff to do real soon, family of origin work and healing my inner child, I've had little glimpses of how excruciating this is going to be. My personality has been shredded, now I have to rebuild it piece by piece. But I have Jehovah, the friends, my support group and my own courage. I'll make it as those who came before me did, and as those who follow me will too.

We can move into positions of power in our lives. We can do amazing things. More impressive than the widow who gave all she 'had and earned Jesus' praise, some of us have managed to give to our children what we never had, self-esteem. What more could anyone give than to give what was never given them? This is a triumph!

Please listen to us, give us your exoneration, acceptance, approval and respect. Then, as our layers of defenses peel away to reveal who we really are inside, someone precious and lovable, we will come to have your affection as well.


Paul Blizard, formerly a worker at the Bethel complex of building in Brooklyn and now a highly regarded Baptist minister, has written, "Later, I became a part of a group that met with Franz on Wednesday nights, listening to him pontificate. We would discuss the "daily text," a scripture passage. I will never forget his voice as he stretched out the syllables, "Brooother Blizaaaaard, what comment do you have on this text."

I would try my best to interpret it. Once, I asked the wrong question and drew a violent response. Jehovah's Witnesses are taught that Jehovah God himself deals directly only with a group known as "the remnant" and that other Jehovah's Witnesses must deal with Him through the Watchtower Society.

The arrangement puzzled me. I asked: "Brother Franz, since the Watchtower Society in Brooklyn is the only outlet for God to speak through, by way of the printed materials and so forth, how would someone of the 'remnant' get information from God to other Witnesses? I mean ... how would an older sister, say, way out in the country, for example, give Spiritual food from Jehovah to others?"

Franz's face turned red and he replied: "How? ... How? ... By supporting what is printed in the Watchtower, that's how!" With that, he went to his room. End of discussion. I believe Franz's reaction was demonic.



Readers need to note that the following are alleged experiences, not facts proved in any court of law.


Gail Massicotte now lives in Florida and wished to relate her feelings as expressed following:


She felt that Jehovah’s Witness Elders often directed extremely degrading comments at her.  She was shown neither genuine loving concern nor proper respect.  For example the Elders would get angry and say, “Stop opening up your legs, hold an aspirin down there.” 


Gail would respond to them, “If Jesus came to Earth he’d call you Pharisees!  He’d clean all of you out!  You’re supposed to guiding us, refreshing us!   Show me where Jesus didn’t show respect to women.  He never talked to them like that!  You can’t read my heart!  Hearing you, I think I’m throwing my pearls before the swines!!” 


She was raised in the Watchtower Society but left when age thirty-six.  She would pray to God, “Why are they doing this?  Why am I being persecuted like this?”  Her own brother was an overseer, and her sister was an Elder’s wife, but now she has nothing to do with them. 


When age three Gail found that she was a healer by which she means she feels that she can talk to a person and tell them information about their “soul” (that is, body with its spirit).   She says she found out that Nathan Knorr was her grandfather.


She says people who didn’t know the sort of things that Knorr was put through have a wrong view of him.  Although mistaught cult ways, she stressed that he was trying hard to be “a righteous man,” truly a righteous man.  


As said, she left Watchtower at age thirty-six.  This came after she had discovered not only that her Mom was into the Mafia, spiritism and lesbianism, but had stolen her from her actual birth mother. 


When Gail was age two her Mom joined and infiltrated the Watchtower Society.  Hypocritically her Mom went in field service etc to look good, but at night she did drug running etc and would take Gail along to indoctrinate her into doing as the Mom wanted.


Gail was raped at her grandfather’s.  Her mother took her to some Mafia meetings at Bethel at about age eleven and also at age twelve.  There were cubby holes behind filing cabinets which she had to crawl into in order to retrieve envelopes that contained laundered dirty (that is criminally gained) money, some being for example in conference rooms with nice tables. 


The roof paneling had envelopes with money in them, too; there was also money on dining area roofs.  (It is not clear here if she meant ceilings or exactly what)  Sometimes envelopes of money were pulled upwards via a kitchen elevator or dumbwaiter.


Her Mom programmed her to at the saying of a certain word or feeling a tap on the shoulder go into a trance-like state, doing as instructed.


Gail was studying the Bible already at age two, and by age three she would stand up to her Mom, opposing the doing of things that her Mom wanted her to do but that were wrong.  It was confusing whenever she would hear Elders whom she knew did wrong deeds at other times be giving Bible convention talks about needing to do what is good. 


She was raped for not going along with what all her Mom was trying to program into her.  To make her more obedient, at age 13 her Mom had another person put a wire for electrical shocking upon her left leg calf, which made her feel vulnerable.  This was included with rape, in an effort to make her try to remember drug territories information for her Mom.


For a long time she did not remember about the electrical wire but then the memory of it came back.  She says she also has a white mark where she used to be shocked.


She has suffered from Multiple Personality Disorder and couldn’t express herself totally on it but for example she used to paint her fingernails red and then remove the red fingerpaint.   She didn’t want to be doing wrong things, but she was also programmed to prostitute. 


Her Mom took her to New York where she would be raped and made to feel degraded.  Her Mom wanted to take away from her the concept of right and wrong, and along with it also remove the concept of what is normal sexuality, (giving her guilt where she shouldn’t feel guilty, making her okay where she should feel bad.)


She says she has helped many people out (of the Watchtower), and she feels that she is now being used as a vessel for Jesus. 


She recalls that at some point when a child she saw a gardener who buried a plastic bag full of envelopes with money.  (She did not note if she recalled seeing this done anywhere in Brooklyn or elsewhere)


Among various places, she remembers that they once came to live on Meetinghouse Road in Merrimac, Florida.  Her age was then 16.   They were always moving about because of her Mom’s cultic practices.


Up north was Lake Baboosick (?), maybe around Shinserd (?), Massachusetts where friends used to come and get baptized.  They also had picnics.


Her son was tied to a tree, fed or had excrement shoved before him, taught to first start with the killing insects.  For a reward he was raped, in the cult pain being equated to pleasure, and pleasure to pain; the goal being to remove his sense of conscience.  It was taught by the cult within the Watchtower cult that if a child set a house on fire when told to then he would get a toy.


Not only the son but the daughter with her were actually given birth to by other women, then swapped off with her own biological children.   This was to discipline her for not always following instructions.  


At age 5 her son was Attention Deficit Disorder, set his bed on fire and put his hand in the fire but didn’t feel it.  He would be found at a house by the returned owners and he would curse at them as if they didn’t belong there and he did.  He was put into a mental hospital.


However, an anointed sister helped her son out to such an extent that she feels that he is now whole again.  While in the cult she did not note any unusual clothing such as hoods but she did see some use of candles with the invoking of demons. 


The cultists empower energy through the demons, then their minds, intangibly inflecting pain and fatigue.


She believes Daytona was full of the cultists, at least 15; Lake Wales had 20-25; many were in Port Orange, some in Avon Park, Florida.


She now attends a non-denominational church called the Celebration Church.  She enjoys that it has much positive energy making some of the people glow with joy.


She says that some companies such as for cigarettes and some brands of bluejeans have Mafia ties.


Gail was in the Bethel complex in Brooklyn, New York, twice.  She entered a tall buildings then went off to the left, and there was a storage area.




In some ways what Gail Massicotte alleges is similar to what Ravyn Giuliani has alleged, especially so insofar as use, misuse and abuse of children. 


Whereas Ravyn’s account speaks more of cultists focused on trying to divine the future by automatic-writing and who wore cult garments, Gail’s Massicotte’s account speaks more of cultists focused on drugs and money-laundering in particular in Florida and New York but not wearing cult garments.   


One might speculate (although still bearing in mind that these are only allegations) that the accounts speak of either the same cultists or, just as possible, of two different although interconnected cult groups.


In any case, according to Watchtower it has no real problems with pedophiles in it, and nor does it have any problem with Satanic Ritual Abuse.  Other groups have such problems, but Watchtower emphasizes their organization which is the only one that is “Jehovah’s organization on Earth,” and which now has over 1 million members in the United States alone, has no such problems.


Of course, though, if “Jehovah’s organization” that operates out of Brooklyn, New York, were to have only one drug or pedophile cultists in 100 then that would mean 10,000 such cultists in the U.S. alone; and if there were only one in 1,000 then that would still mean 1000 such cultists embedded among mostly unsuspecting JW men, women and children in the U.S. alone.

Recently the following was posted:

Prosecutor says Nelson Rivera, a Jehovah’s Witness youth who left El Salvador as a refugee, after employed by a major business stole $549,000 in seven months for “fast women and a fast car.”  After being discovered, Rivera fled from Australia to Mexico, but is now back and in court.   For more information click  
http://www.smh.com.au/victoria/trusted-teen-stole-for-fast-women-and-a-fast-car-20100810-11y9k.html   Also read EDITOR'S COMMENTS at christianwitnesses.com 

Insofar as COMMENTS go, this is still another bad reflection on the Watchtower Society, an organization that consistently over-stresses that young people and old knock doors, knock doors, knock doors instead of do more to teach by example as well as words the importance of good character traits.  

Possibly, too, the employer of the young man knew at the time that the young man was a Jehovah's Witness and assumed or presumed that that meant that he would be absolutely trustworthy.  If so, he has learned the hard way that it doesn't work like that! 

If only Watchtower's "Governing Body" could learn something, too.........

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